Author: Sara Palmer

  • Advent Hope in a Time of Terror

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    Advent Hope in a Time of Terror

    Luke 21:25-36

    Charles Foster Johnson

    Bread Fellowship, Fort Worth, Texas

    When we read our assignment from our Leader in his marvelous Gospel message, we note that he tells us over and over not to be afraid. This is a major refrain in the New Testament documents. We are told repeatedly to fear not, to be not anxious, to take no thought for tomorrow, to lift up our heads, that our redemption is near. These oft-stated encouragements tell us that Jesus knows something at bottom about our human nature: that we are frightened creatures, and that we are, frankly, scared out of our wits. This is what makes Jesus’s trust in us so peculiar. On the one hand, he knows we are scared to death, but on the other hand, he expects bravery from us. He tells his disciples over and over not to be afraid, then he sends them right into danger. For example, when Jesus commissions his twelve disciples, recorded with remarkable similarity in all three synoptics, he says three things in this famous address: travel light, because hospitality will meet you at every turn (Mark 6:8-9, Luke 10:7-8); hang tough, because your opposition will be pretty mean (Matthew 10:16-23); and fear not, because love is all around you (Matthew 10:26-39). It’s this last piece of Jesus teaching here that concerns us this morning—freedom from fear. How do we shed our fear-based way of viewing reality and allow God to replace it with a faith-based way? Can we actually heed the oft-repeated refrain of biblical faith to ‘Tear not?” In this world of woe and time of terror and age of anxiety, can we be persons of bravery and courage as Jesus clearly expects us to be? Is this merely nice-sounding religious rhetoric, or is it truly possible for us to experience freedom from fear? How do we have hope in a time of terror? Jesus assures us that we can be brave, like him. He forthrightly asserts that “it is enough for the disciple to be like the teacher” (Matthew 10:25). Jesus isn’t cynical about the possibility for his followers to enact his teaching, to flesh out his vision for the world. Not only does Jesus assume it is possible, he expects it from us. He doesn’t hedge his bets. He doesn’t go soft on this imperative. He doesn’t compromise its con­ viction. He believes it is entirely do-able. Jesus doesn’t say, “Ok, I know the world is mean and cruel and hateful, and I really don’t think you can live fearlessly in that kind of world. I know I spoke this and lived this, but I really don’t expect you to.” I am forever puzzled by Christians who are essentially cynical about the new world that Jesus creates. By cynical I mean they don’t really believe Jesus’s world of love and justice is possible. To me, this conclusion is the most despairing of all. Why would our Lord have told us to feed the hungry, go the extra mile, turn the other cheek, forgive our neighbor seven times seventy times, befriend the stranger, accept


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    the rejected, help the poor, reconcile the broken, love the unlovely, and build an al­ ternative kingdom to the kingdoms of this world if it were not doable? Instead of taking a chance on this imaginative and transformative world of Jesus, we’ve gone whole hog, swallowed hook, line, and sinker the vision of this present world. That’s why Jesus says in our text this morning that this present world will pass away. It has to. It is the world his words create that will never pass away (Mark 13.31). No, Jesus assumes that if we are going to be his disciples, we will follow a certain discipline—his discipline. That is, we will practice being a disciple. We will drop our nets and follow him. This means something quite simple: we will say the things that Jesus said and we will do the things that Jesus did. In short, we will quit our previous regimen of saying and doing things before Jesus came along, and now go and say the things that Jesus said and did. This is a discipline, the pursuit of which makes us a disciple. One of the reasons he repeats this call to “fear not” over and over again is be­ cause it is at the heart of what it means to create a new world with the transforming vision of love. But, it is a regimen that, like any exercise, must be performed over and over and over before it produces any effect in our lives. We simply cannot think or read or feel our way into discipleship, we must act our way. That is why it requires the discipline of following, of doing, of practicing. I learned this powerfully from our sons, Chad and Cliff, in their experience of mili­ tary culture. When they joined the Army, they entered a world of discipline, of doing the things that make good soldiers. They had to un-leam a lot and re-leam a lot. They were de-constructed and re-constructed. They submitted themselves willingly to a regimen of behavior and action. After their commission as soldiers, it mattered not one whit what they were feeling or thinking. Never once did their superior officer come to them and ask, “What do you think? How are you feeling about this? What is your opinion?” What mattered was obedience to a discipline. What was important is what they did, how they acted. When they served in Iraq, Jana and I would have that infrequent, all-too-brief, worried conversation with them, asking, “Where will they send you next? What will you be doing?” One day, Chad gently chided us, saying, “You know, the generals just haven’t consulted me today about that! I’m going to do what I’m ordered. 99

    Aristotle had this same observation when he studied the Greek army. He was much impressed with the fidelity and obedience that marked the soldiers’ lives. He noted their utter commitment and dedication to each other. He observed the way these soldiers would march headlong into danger that normal humans would in­ stinctively flee. In fact, he concluded that the Greek army was the model commu­ nity of moral formation precisely because people learned to act counterintuitively to what they felt. When I realized that my boys weren’t frightened as they patrolled the streets of Kirkuk and Baghdad, but were practicing their fidelity to their fellow soldiers because of a practiced discipline they had enacted over and over, it helped me deal with my own fear for my sons.


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    Practice, practice, practice Jesus’s teachings enough and we might just end up being Jesus’s disciple after all. This is the way to appropriate hope in a time of fear and anxiety. Act counterintuitively to the threat and pro-actively with the world of courage you are trying to create. Get the old ways of acting and speaking out of your system. Get the new ways of acting and speaking inside you. Francis of Assisi said something like this: “Our job is not to change the world, but, rather, to change worlds.” To get into the world of Jesus. The entire continent of Europe was evangelized in four short centuries by simple monks who moved into communities and established circles of love called monasteries. They prayed, worshiped, cultivated crops, made good wine, cared for the poor and sick, and loved each other as brothers and sisters. In short, they switched worlds. It didn’t take long for the world at large to catch on. You can live like heathens raping and pillaging and marauding, beating and blasting each other to smithereens, or you can live in peace and amity. The church gave the world a choice. If we are going to be free from fear, we have to disavow a life of protection. Such a way of behaving will now be deconstructed. We will leave those nets. No longer will we be consumed and obsessed with protective impulses. We will order our lives in such a way that we are open and transparent. We have nothing to hide or protect now. There will be no more covering up. No more running scared. What is whispered in the corridors of power and control will now be shouted from the house­ tops. Information, that all-consuming commodity of power, will now be distributed equitably among all people. This is the way a disciple of Christ lives. We will no lon­ ger expend massive amounts of energy on protection. In fact, we will be intentional about reducing our need for protection by living a life of trust and generosity. No amount of security and protection in the world can save the body. No amount of dan­ ger and threat in the world can kill the soul. The walls we have spent so much time and money building we will now tear down. In the words of the U2 song, “What you ”1 don’t have you don’t need it now / what you don’t know you can feel it somehow. We will no longer live the way of fear. No more will we be suspicious toward our neighbor. All will be well. And we’ll be free as a sparrow. If we are going to live a life free from fear, we have not only to disavow a life of protection, but to avow a life of connection. We will claim a common heavenly parentage, and that Source will determine our connection to each other. Because God is the Heavenly Parent of us all, we will claim our connection to every person on the planet. We will affirm that we are all kinspersons. No longer will family be defined the same way. Jesus redefines family in this discipline of the Kingdom. Ethnicity and biology are no longer determinative. Here, whoever dares to take up the cross and follow—not admire or respect or applaud—but follow, is in the family of God. The wall of protection that we have dismantled, will now become a bridge of connection to our brothers and sisters throughout the entire global village. The dividing wall of hostility, to use Paul’s pungent phrase, is now the connecting table of hospitality.


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    You and I really can be practitioners of the hope of Jesus the Christ and the al­ ternative world he creates for us. Hear these words today: though you are poor and persecuted, meek and in mourning, you nevertheless have a blessedness about you that is so utterly abundant that you can create a new world with it. You have enough love to take the violence of your enemy into yourself by turning the other cheek. You have more generosity about you than you ever imagined, so give away your cloak as well as your coat. You really can bear the burden of the extra mile, you can bless in response to curses, you can shine in a world of shadows, you can pray for the guy who wants to do you in. In short, Jesus says, your DNA is now agape, and you can be whole, even as your Heavenly Parent is whole. This is the rule of the abundant God for you, and if you seek this rule, as my teacher, Glenn Hinson, translated Matthew 6:33, “and its OK-ing of you, everything else will fall into place. 99

    What’s it going to be? Are you going to spend your life investing in a world that is passing away even as you read this sermon? Or in a world that will never pass away? Clarence Jordan was the founder of Koinonia Farms in south Georgia in the 1950s, a community of racial integration and reconciliation slap in the middle of a bitterly racist culture. One day, Clarence called upon his brother, who was a local lawyer, for help and advocacy. The authorities had brought legal action against Koi­ nonia Farms, and they needed representation in a court of law from a competent at­ torney. But, there was no attorney that would take their case, so Clarence appealed to his own brother. His brother refused. He said, “Clarence, you know I can’t take your case. You know it would mean the end of my practice, that I would lose my clients and become the scorn of the town.” Clarence could not mask his disappointment. He listened patiently and painfully re­ sponded, “Brother, you and I made our professions of faith at the same. We both walked down the aisle of that little country Baptist church and shook the pastor’s hand. Shortly thereafter, we both made our way together into the waters of baptism. Together, we were placed by that pastor into those waters, buried together in baptism, raised together in newness of life. I made a decision that day to follow Jesus. Let me ask you something. Brother: did you make the decision that day to follow Jesus? Or merely admire him?’

    ¿6’If God so clothes the grass of the field, which is alive today and tomorrow

    is thrown into the oven, will God not much more clothe us, O us of little faith? Therefore, do not worry saying, ‘What will we eat? What will we drink? What will we wear?’ Your heavenly Parent knows you need all these things. Rather, seek first God’s abundant rule and God’s never-ending OK-ing of us, and all of these things, everything else, will fall into place” (Matthew 6:23).

    Sources Musicmatch. Songwriters: Rick Trevino/Raul Malo/Alan Miller. Beautiful Day lyrics. Copywright Emi Blackwood Music Inc., Figs D. Music, Murlyn Music Publishing/Crosstown . Universal Music Publishing Int. B.v.Rumbalo Music, Winning Circle Music, Toto Tunes, Kmr Music Royalties li Scsp.

  • Resurrection Is No Fairy Tale

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    Resurrection Is No Fairy Tale

    Tom Are, Jr.

    Village Presbyterian Church, Prairie Village, Kansas

    Dr. Victor Dzau is a professor at the Duke School of Medicine and recent Pres­ ident of the National Academy of Medicine. Under his leadership. The Academy launched the ‘‘Grand Challenge in Healthy Longevity.”^ The purpose of this grand challenge is to incentivize medical research to extend human life span while keeping bad knees and hearing loss, not to mention weak hearts, from eroding quality of life. To age and maintain health, according to Dr. Dzau, will “unlock the opportunity of aging.” But the boldest among them are not interested in just tacking on a few years. They are convinced that science can make death optional. In 2017, there was a fundraiser to benefit Healthy Longevity. It was held outside of Los Angeles in Norman Lear’s living room. Sergey Brin and Larry Page were there. They are the co-founders of Google. Jeff Bezos, the founder of Amazon, was there. Like the rich man who came to Jesus asking “what must I do to inherit eternal life,” the room was jammed with powerful folks and Hollywood glitterati, all want­ ing to learn from scientists the secrets to living forever. Tuxedoed servers circled the room with delicious finger foods. Goldie Hawn asked about glutathione. It’s an an­ tioxidant that protects mitochondria. Some call it the “God molecule.” Dr. Joon Yun donated two million dollars from his healthcare hedge fund. Yun stated that aging is like a code in the human genome. The code can be hacked, he told an enthusiastic crowd, and “we can end aging forever.” Dr. Aubrey de Grey, the chief science officer of a Silicon Valley research foundation, asserts we can retool our biology and stay in our bodies forever. Dr. de Grey doesn’t expect to live long enough to witness this step toward immortality, so he has left instructions to be frozen in liquid nitrogen and thawed when the technology to achieve immortality is available.^ I have preached enough Easter sermons that the words “eternal life” are not foreign to my vocabulary, but I have to say, this quest to live forever sounds like a terrible idea. I’m all for extending life span a bit, but the idea of making death option­ al is terrifically foolish. Addressing finitude is not our greatest concern. Addressing our sin is a far greater concern. As human beings, we are beautiful, but also broken. As communities, we have moments of compassion, fairness, and grace, but every community also practices injustice and exclusion. The promise of resurrection is not simply a life that does not end, but rather a life that is transformed. That transforma­ tion will not be fulfilled until the dead are raised and all are welcomed into God’s promised day, but the transformation begins now. Resurrection is not simply about getting us into heaven; it’s about getting a little heaven into us. However, if you are stepping into the pulpit this Easter Sunday, you already know that amidst the trum­ pets and aroma of lilies and the gusto with which even infrequent worshippers sing


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    ‘Jesus Christ is Risen Today,” the folks who fill your pews will no doubt feel that with the world as it is, the impact of resurrection is a bit restrained. The idea of sim­ ply extending life eternally in this world is not good news. We don’t need more time; we need a better us. So, as you speak of this resurrected Christ, what will you say? Once upon a time, the love of God lived in skin and breathed the same molecules of air that you and I breathe today. His teaching left listeners slack-jawed with both wonder and fear. He had a talent to whip up a feast from almost nothing. He would eat with anyone, which made the polished folks more than uncomfortable. He was known at least once to come through in a big way when the wedding of a friend ran out of wine. He made some friends who would be willing to take a bullet for him, or at least that’s what they thought. But he also made serious enemies, particularly among people with power. He rode a donkey into the city as crowds laid a green car­ pet with palm fronds, while they held “Jesus for President” signs. For the powers that be, that was the last straw. He was killed in horrible and humiliating fashion. When he breathed his last, his broken body was buried. But when the world put him in the ground, God raised him up. As Mark tells it, some guy in pretty snappy dress said the risen one was going to Galilee. The Easter message was not simply that Jesus, once dead, is now alive, but just as importantly, “he is going ahead of you.” His friends were called “followers.” On Easter, the following continues. If I understand the text, he’s going ahead to lead us to a better us. But looking at us, we must confess the impact of resurrection remains a bit modest. To my mind and piety, Mark is both the humblest and bravest resurrection evan­ gelist. He has told us everything he knows to tell of the Jesus story. But when he has told us everything he knows about Jesus, he writes that it is just “Jhe beginning of the good news of Jesus Christ, Son of God” (Mark 1:1). What else could it be? If Jesus is really alive, and Mark believes he is, then the only part of the Jesus story Mark can tell is “the beginning.” Mark tells his story and then hands the gospel pen to the next generation and to the next, to continue the narrative of how the resurrected Christ lives in a new day. The burden of every preacher is knowing that this gospel pen is now in her hands. Where do we point to resurrection in our day—in these days when democracy is attacked, in these days when Putin is resurrecting nuclear threats, in these days when community after community is forced to rebuild as another flood, fire, or storm of the century leaves neighborhoods and sometimes whole communities wiped off the map, in these days when folks who identify themselves as followers of Jesus diminish the humanity of their neighbor, speaking of them not at humans but as “a political agenda”? In days such as these, the lordship of Jesus Christ is seldom obvi­ ous. However, we should not lose perspective. There have been better days, for sure. There have also been worse days, no doubt. But these are our days, and the gospel pen is in our hands…. So what do we say? No doubt there will be some who wonder “Is it true?” I’ll confess, that is not


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    my first question. In the last eighteen years, I have officiated more than 500 services bearing witness to the resurrection, some for people I barely knew, but others in­ cluded my own father, as well as many in my congregation whom I have loved like family. Ironically, grief has been my resurrection teacher. I have watched ordinary people love one another with a heartbreaking love. Grief comes because there is a persistence to love. With us, love doesn’t always say the right thing and doesn’t always do the right thing, but love holds on. Love doesn’t die, which is why death is so damn hard. I believe we love like that because the God who made us loves like that. Resurrection is reliable because God is love, and love holds on. The love of God simply refuses to grant death the power to pull us from God. But resurrection is not just the promise that life doesn’t end. It is the promise that life is being made right. It’s not the veracity of resurrection that is hard to address; it’s the modesty of resurrection. Resurrection leaves a rather humble fingerprint on the world. This ‘’once upon a time” story of Jesus that includes miracles, social trans­ formation, and the resurrected life of a dead man could read like a fairy tale, with one huge exception. Fairy tales always end with “and they all lived happily ever after.” We don’t. Of course, the fullness of resurrection will be known at the end. But Jesus is raised today! So, resurrection, like faith itself, engages us in a battle with forces much larger than we are. Transformation never comes easily. While not a common text for Easter, the first parable that Jesus told offers a clar­ ifying word. The Parable of the Sower is a hysterical story that tells of a farmer with the most unusual theory of agriculture. This sower appears to be paid for distribution rather than harvest. She sows gospel seed anywhere and everywhere with reckless abandon. There is no place this sower won’t throw seed. The point is clear enough: there is no circumstance in which we should lose confidence in this seed. The seed, of course, is not an idea or even a doctrine: it’s love. But, as the story goes, most of it fails. Love is choked out, scorched, even withers away. But finally, there is a bit of good soil, and that is enough. The seed produces a bumper crop thirty, sixty, hundredfold. That’s the way Mark tells it. Matthew, on the other hand, edits this parable in one interesting way. Rather than the harvest going up and up and up, Matthew says the harvest is hundred, sixty, thirtyfold. If I understand the text, Matthew wants us to pay attention to modest victories, lesser gains. Sometimes the victories of love are modest. Over thirty years ago, I got a call late on a Friday evening. “Rev. Are, we need to see you. It’s our marriage.” I said, “Of course. I have time tomorrow.” She said, “Excellent, we will be at your office at 7:30.” In the morning? I’m not a morning person. I know that there are those who spring to life with the rising of the sun. But myself, I think in God’s promised day there will be about three mornings a week. They shouldn’t be banned altogether, but having one every day is overdoing it. Nevertheless, I rose with the alarm. On the way to the church, I stopped


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    for a bucket of coffee. They were waiting for me when I arrived. I said, “Tell me what’s going on.” She said, “We aren’t anything alike. We have such different expectations of life.” “Say more about that,” I said. “Well, for example, we woke up last Saturday. I asked, ‘What would you like to do today?’ He didn’t immediately respond. ‘I was thinking we might work in the yard before it gets too hot. After we mow the lawn, we could plant those shrubs I bought on Tuesday. Then you could hang the new ceiling fan while I’m at the grocery store. Then we could paint the porch swing; I’ve picked a nice seafoam green. Of course, we don’t want to work all day, so I thought we could drive out to the beach and take a long walk, find inner peace, and on the way back we could stop for lunch. But that’s just me,”’ she said. “What would you like to do today?” He said, ‘‘I was hoping to get some coffee. •Coffee!” she says. “That’s it?” “Well, it’s a 95 CC,

    start. 9? ii’That’s all you want out of the day? Just coffee?” “You see our problem, don’t

    you Reverend?” I looked at my coffee. I used to be like her, except for the love of morning. I used to be convinced that my business would bring transformation. I trusted build it and they will come, seize the day, take no prisoners, on to victory, thirty, sixty, hundredfold. If Jesus could bring the kingdom near, snq could bring it here But over time, my expectations have moderated. We as people of faith simply do not have the influence we once assumed we held. Time has taught me that ministry is not always thirty, sixty, hundred…; sometimes it is hundred, sixty, thirty, ten, five. The church is not always lost in won­ der, love, and praise. Sometimes we are just lost. I think Matthew would understand. There are amazing things that happen in and through the church. Sometimes the harvest is hundredfold. Jesus is Lord, and he is risen indeed, and sometimes the church is where that is clearest. But like him, we still live in Herod’s world. The cli­ mate is changing, and her wrath is witnessed in every news cycle. The gap between those who can’t get a little and those who can’t help but get more is expanding. Gun violence is as American as apple pie, and school children and concert goers and pa­ rade participants are paying with their lives for our second amendment freedom. The direction I thought we had agreed upon as a nation regarding race is now under con­ stant challenge. And the nation that once figured out how to leave human footprints on the surface of the moon now seems to have lost the capacity to do hard things. The needs of the world are dramatic, and we as people of faith are not very strong. You would be forgiven if you wondered if the risen one has gone so far ahead of us that he has left us behind. I think Matthew could relate. But he would also tell us to trust the seed. In every circumstance, trust the gospel. It will not always work, but trust the seed. Of course, the seed that you and I are called to sow is love—a resurrected love. Love is a power, but admittedly, it is a tender power. Love is a strength, but a vulnerable strength. The Easter angel promised us that love has gone ahead, and we will find it. The resurrection of Jesus Christ launches us into the battle not just for more time, but for a better us. And even though love’s victories are often modest, love will win. Alleluia.


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    The church I served in Jacksonville, Florida, was across the street from a public park. Some of the unhoused in Jacksonville called that park home. Often on my way into the church, someone would ask for spare change or maybe a sandwich. One morning I walked down the street to a coffee shop, and one of the guys from the park spotted me. He said, “Sir, can I come in with you?’ ► 99 ttlSure,” I said. “Come on.”

    I ordered my coffee and said, ‘T’ll also pay for whatever he’s having.” He said, “I just want a cup of water,” but then he put money on the counter. He said, “I’d like to buy this man’s coffee. 99

    “I don’t understand; you’re buying my coffee?”

    choir. ‘You’re the pastor of that church, right?’ ‘Yes. 99 ÍÍ’You have a really nice

    ‘Yes, we do.” He said, ‘‘I used to sing in the choir when I was in college. 99 cc

    99 CC’

    “You were in college?” “Yes, until my mom got sick, and I had to drop out. But I love the music, and your custodian lets me in the balcony when the choir is rehearsing on Thursday nights. I lie in a pew and listen. Rev, it’s the best part of my week. For an hour I am surrounded by beauty. Don’t you love it when moments come along and you are just surrounded by beauty? So, I just want to buy you a cup of coffee and ask you to thank the singers at your church. 99

    “I’m sorry, what’s your name?’ 199 CCI’m Gabriel,” he said. “Your name is Ga-

    briel?” “Yes sir. It’s a name from the Bible. 99 66,Gabriel, would you like to come and

    sing on Thursday?” “Oh no,” he said. “I don’t sing anymore, but I love to listen. Tell them last week’s anthem by Rutter is one of my favorites. Enjoy your coffee.” And he disappeared into the crowd. I served a church that was surrounded by unhoused people. We engaged in the battle for a better day, but it was more than we could change. Addressing the need left us feeling inadequate. With each passing year, it felt like we were losing ground. And yet sometimes we get a glimpse of a new day that is surely coming, a day when we will be surrounded by beauty. I thought I walked into Starbucks, but I met an Easter angel who was actually named Gabriel, and he showed me that beauty has not died. The resurrected one continues to call us forward. Often the victories of love are modest, but love will win. In the prologue to Hans Kung’s book On Being a Christian^ he says, “This book was written not because the author thinks he is a good Christian, but because he thinks that being a Christian is a particularly good thing.”3 Easter calls us to pay attention to this particularly good thing. In this broken world, we do the good that is ours to do, share the love that is ours to share, and let God do with that what God will do. Sometimes it will fail miserably. But sometimes there will be victories, maybe hundredfold. Or maybe thirtyfold. But even modest victories bear witness that the fragile power of love is persistent. It endures all things, as Paul says. Ben Comen ran cross country at Hannah High School, near Anderson, South Carolina.”^ Ben was always the last runner to cross the finish line, but people from across the upstate would knock off work early to go watch Ben Comen run. Ben


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    has cerebral palsy. It seizes the muscles and contorts his body, leaving him to lunge and falter. It would take him a better part of the morning to run the 3.1-mile race. In almost every race, he fell. It was not unusual for Ben to cross the finish line bloodied about the elbows and knees. But people would wait. And when he neared the end, they all returned to the track to cross the finish line together. Grown men watched, twisting their jaws, trying to keep the tears in their eyes and off their faces. Why do you suppose the whole town turned out to watch a kid run who would never win? I think they watched Ben Comen because they were so much like him, or more likely, they wanted to be like him. They watched a guy who reminded them that you don’t have to be particularly good at something to do a particularly good thing. You don’t have to finish first to win what really matters. The promise of Easter is that as powerful as death may be, it is not more power­ ful than the love of God. This holy love that calls you by name will never let you go. It is persistent. It is an undying love. It is a power, but a tender power. It is a vulner­ able strength, but it lives and it calls us to live toward a promised day that we have never seen, but a day that beckons us. So, as Easter people we do the good that is ours to do. We share the love that is ours to share, and we live toward that promised day when justice will roll down like waters. It is a day when swords will be beaten into plowshares because it will finally make more sense to us to feed one another than to kill one another. It’s a promised day when the grumbling noises of hungry bellies are replaced with songs of table blessings. It’s a promised day when our children grow up ‘‘to be neither the destroy­ ers nor the destroyed.”^ We have never reached that promised day. But because the love of God does not die, this promise remains. Easter is no fairy tale. Easter does not mean we all live happily ever after, not yet. Rather Easter launches us into the battle for life transformed. The promise of Easter is not that there will be no end to us, but that there is coming a better us. That is why even in these days, we can sing with a full heart, “Jesus Christ is risen today. Alleluia.” In the walk of faith, we are sometimes clumsy, and our victories are modest. The needs of the world are overwhelming, and we feel small. The only power we have is love, and love is a tender power, and her victories are often modest. But keep trusting that holy love, and here and there, now and then, you will hear the voice of the one who has gone ahead, calling over his shoulder, “Come on. I’m right here ahead of you. Keep coming!” Alleluia!

    Notes 1 Tad Friend, “Silicon Valley’s Quest to Live Forever,” The Neyv Yorker, March 27, 2017. 2 Friend. All the information regarding “Healthy Longevity” is found in Friend’s article. 3 Hans Kung, On Being a Christian (New York: Image Books, Doubleday, 1984), 20. 4 Rich Reilly, Sports Illustrated, 2003. 5 Barbara Kingsolver, Animal Dreams (New York: Harper Collins, 1990), 299.

  • What the Physician Wants the Pastor to Know

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    What the Physician Wants the Pastor to Know

    Dr. Luke Farmer

    Charlotte, North Carolina

    When I was first asked to convey a helpful and meaningful message to pastors, who are much more theologically steeped than I, my initial response was to say, ‘‘God, no!” Surely those folks are closer to God, by nature of their profession. They already wrestle with the daily mess of caring for members of their flock who are sick, grieving, suffering, lonely, and depressed. They are well-seasoned professionals. None of my insights will be particularly helpful to them. They expertly navigate the entire range of human experience, from the joys of births and weddings to the bro­ kenness of human relationships, illness, and death. I am just an amateur. Then I realized that this exercise was as much for me and my patients as for the pastors. On any given day, I toggle with speed and efficiency between joy, frustration, and sorrow. I start the day rejoicing with a patient in the news that her cancer ap­ pears to be cured or that he is in remission. Ten minutes later I take a deep breath at the door to the exam room, as I am about to tell a sweet older man that he may just not make it to celebrate that next grandchild’s graduation or that if he is around, he will probably be too sick from chemo to make it to that daughter’s wedding. Some­ times I struggle to muster up the empathy that I want to have, that I know Jesus would want me to have. Other times I completely fake it and then hope the next cup of coffee will give me more compassion. I believe that many in medicine undergo multiple mini-traumatic experiences a day. Any provider who has participated in a Code Blue for a cardiac arrest that had a bad outcome will tell you this. We learn early on in training not to forget these ex­ periences but to put them in a storage closet so that we can pull them out and work through them later, when there is more time and fewer patients. That rarely ever happens. The much easier way to cope is to become numb, or worse yet, bitter and cynical. We do not adequately process these experiences, and as a result we often do not grow from them as we could. I still wrestle with the role emotion should play in my job. Why is it that I can stare an elderly woman directly in the eye and tell her she has six weeks or less to live and not even shed a tear, then get choked up seeing her hold her partner’s hand? I surprise myself at what moves me. Patients who are struggling with so much yet take time to ask me about my children. The old farmer who brings me eggs and tomatoes from his summer garden. The daughter who writes a note thanking me for all I did for her deceased father, telling me how blessed he was to have us caring for him. The last patient I see before the holidays who says, “Merry Christmas,” recog­ nizing it will likely be her last.


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    Mixed between tears and the next fifteen-minute appointment is a barrage of messages from nurses, pharmacists, radiology technicians, and social workers. I quickly sift through labs and make decisions about whether to continue treatment that day; whether to continue chemo or reduce the dose; whether to go ahead and order that scan without contrast or just reschedule it; whether to choose a different medicine from the one I had ideally wanted because the out-of-pocket cost for the patient is too high. I wrestle with whether to push just a bit more with treatment in hopes that one more cycle will help or to stop and call in Hospice. If oncologists are honest with you, many will tell you that they divide their time between the fear of overtreating patients and worrying that they did not treat enough. Decisions, decisions. I occasionally stop and pray that my decisions will be the “correct” ones, that they will somehow reflect God’s will. Then I worry that I don’t have the time in the day to pray as I should. I am a perfectionist, tirelessly devoted to keeping my patients alive and living well, in a job with a 100% failure rate. Where do I find my purpose in helping people along their journey to becoming dust? How do I balance science and the art of medicine, reason and faith, while re­ maining faithful to my Creator? There was a period about a year ago when I was struggling with significant lone­ liness in my job. I told a counselor that some of my loneliest moments of the week, sadly, were not at work (at least work gave me a clear sense of purpose and direc­ tion) but on Saturday mornings during my son’s soccer games. Surrounded by other moms and dads who were investment bankers, lawyers, and commercial realtors, I felt like I did not have common ground to interact and have casual Saturday morning conversation with many of them. How could I engage in banter about mergers and acquisitions or the hottest new commercial development in town, when my mind was completely on my sick patient? It felt so foreign to the concerns occupying my bandwidth every day. It is not that I felt my job was more virtuous, I did feel like these folks would never want to understand what my job entails. So I lost interest in them in return. And I lost an opportunity to be a good friend in some cases. I found myself worrying about patients at many points throughout the weekend, even when I was not on call. In the middle of throwing the football, watching my daughter at a ballet recital, on vacation at the beach, or even in the middle of a run, I would obsessively check charts of patients on my phone through an application linked to the electronic medical record. Much of my worrying and chart stalking is unproductive and self-destructive. Unchecked, it can alienate me from the people right in front of me, even my wife and children. I realize that I have become addicted to checking charts on my phone and I forget how to worry well, in a more produc­ tive sense. Some of this is not entirely my fault, but a result of technology making us instantly accessible for any number of patient messages at all times. Our medical training to some degree rewards compulsiveness and worrying. Indeed, the worry­ ing sometimes pays off and may help a patient. Yet in the process of trying to stay


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    connected to patients when I am not physically there to help them, I threaten to shut out those whom I love the most. I seal myself off from the community around me, when I know God has created us to be in relationship with this community. Patients ask me nearly every day how long I believe they have to live. My imme­ diate response is that I am not God. Then I go on to offer a medical prediction based on randomized studies. I owe it to them to be realistic, yet sometimes this dashes patients’ hopes. That feels out of step with my calling, as hope can be transformative, and I have seen patients live months, even years, longer than expected on hope alone. One of my closest physician mentors reminded me that my job is not to play God, not to try to predict the future, or write patients’ destinies. In my core, I know this is true. Yet everything about modem medical training is geared around trying to be God. We physicians are trained from the beginning to have the right answer, to make the accurate diagnosis and prognosis, to fix the problem, to find the solution that will buy a patient three more months of life. Physicians will begmdgingly admit a mistake to a patient; yet for many, heaven forbid they mention their mistakes to another physician. In the pursuit of perfection, physicians have created a culture of shame around mistakes. They are buried deep within people, where they fester and lead to burnout, depression, and most of all, a profound sense of loneliness. It is not surprising that many physicians do not count other physicians on their short list of close friends whom they can trust. This is a deep shame, because in a sense, only physicians who make these decisions can truly understand the weight that their col­ leagues feel. If we could just abandon our own sense of pride, or perhaps our deeper sense of shame, we physicians might be able to witness to God’s transformative healing power for one another. Our culture of isolation is exacerbated by the lack of in-person medical con­ ferences and other physician gatherings post COVID. Introverts though many of us may be, physicians find job satisfaction in the camaraderie built around working together to figure a problem out, collaborating, and in the case of trainees, going through a mentally and physically tough training experience together and coming out on the other side. Like many professions, we, as a medical community, have lost some of this sense of collegiality and mutual support over the past three years. With applications on our phone, we can see labs and results quicker than ever be­ fore. We communicate now more than ever, but this technology does not always enable us to communicate well. In the midst of a discussion with a patient about transitioning to Hospice, I am likely to be pinged ten to fifteen times about signing chemotherapy orders, approving labs, or scheduling a peer-to-peer review to make my case to a fellow doctor why an insurance company should pay for my patient to undergo a special PET scan. I approach my peer-to-peer review with the insurance physician not as a cordial discussion about the most appropriate care plan, but as a battle to be won. The doctor on the other line becomes the adversary, someone who left patient care and who no longer understands what it is like to take care of real


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    patients. He or she becomes an enemy to be defeated in my quest to deliver the best care to my patient. I am David, and the insurance company is Goliath. I realize that I am becoming self-righteous, even arrogant, in my pursuit. I try to tone it down, and I give a good Southern “Thank you, sir” when I hang up the phone. The medical system is designed such that it is often more adversarial than collegial, and sadly pa­ tients sometimes get caught in the crosshairs. In the midst of egos and distractions, how do I remind myself to truly listen and minister to the patient who is suffering in front of me? With all the competing de­ mands, how do I place my attention on the patients who need help the most? I went to seminary right out of college, sensing that perhaps I was called to be a pastor. Midway through my second year, that calling abruptly changed. I began to explore going to medical school, which I had considered initially as an under­ graduate. I discovered that if Jesus himself took human flesh and redeemed it, then there was something innately mysterious and holy about the body. I devoted my life to caring for human bodies as “wonderfully and fearfully made” in God’s image. I thought of medicine as the most incamational of callings and felt it was the most tangible way that I could serve God and God’s people. That image stayed with me throughout much of my first year of medical school. I remember going through the anatomy lab, studying the cadavers and reflecting on Psalm 139 “you knit me togeth­ er in my mother’s womb.” That probably sounds weird, but the intricacies of God’s creation amazed me. By the end of the second year, however, I saw firsthand the innumerable ways that God’s human creations fall apart. Whether through random inborn mutations in utero, or wear and tear from years of poor human choices, the body inevitably falls apart. Cancer is perhaps one of the most cruel examples of this. At first, I became frustrated at the relentless progression of cancer, how it could escape detection and then show up in the brain when you least expected it, or how it could blow up and make people deathly ill within weeks. This decay hardly felt consistent with Jesus’s mission of redeeming the human body, restoring it to wholeness. I had to reframe my understanding of incarnation. God did not enter into human flesh to make the body the most perfect version of itself. God assumed human form not to erase human pathology, but to redeem it and restore the body to right relationship. This reffaming has helped me a great deal as I try to share God’s hope with patients who are suffering from cancer. This reflection is not meant to whine about being overworked, to lament and reminisce about the good old days of medicine, or to blame the massive modem healthcare institution in spite of all its flaws. Despite all their griping about the in­ creasing corporatization of healthcare, physicians are still a privileged lot. My pur­ pose here is meant to ask you as pastors to help Christian physicians (and all oth­ er Christian health care providers) to redirect this Advent season. Many physicians struggle with deep loneliness and alienation, both within the medical community


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    and outside of it. Medical culture has become such that many feel like they are travelling the road alone. Many feel like none of their non-physician friends truly understand their burdens, and so they bury their heads in the sand and do not make the effort to engage in relationship with others. We need to be encouraged to take that chance on people, to seek out a new friend, to reach out in vulnerability to oth­ er physicians and providers so that God’s beloved community may become real to us again. We need to be reminded that while our friends may not always understand, Jesus certainly does. We must always remember that contrary to the teaching of medical education, our job is not to play God, but to participate in God’s loving care and provision for our patients. We want you to help us reclaim the joy and promise of Christ’s coming in our daily work. We need to be reminded that the Christian faith at its core is about right relationship, with God and one another. We are called to find and reclaim that key relational piece of our work as physicians and caregivers. If pastors can model this by creating transformational communities built on authentic relationships, then hopefully we physicians and caregivers can discover again the joy of medicine in our relationships with patients and one another. We ask for help to live into the Advent hope that even where we cannot heal the body, Jesus, the Great Physician, can still make all patients whole.

  • Reconsidering that Footprints Poem

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    Reconsidering that Footprints Poem

    Adam Hearlson

    Overbrook Presbyterian Church, Philadelphia, Pennsylvania

    16 For we did not follow cleverly devised myths when we made known to you the power and coming of our Lord Jesus Christ, but we had been eyewitnesses of his majesty. 17 For he received honor and glory from God the Father when that voice was conveyed to him by the Majestic Glory, saying, “This is my Son, my Beloved, with whom I am well pleased.” 18 We ourselves heard this voice come from heaven, while we were with him on the holy mountain. 2 Peter 1:16-18

    In the 1970s, a poem started appearing in newspapers and sermons across the U.S. Over three years in the early 80s, the poem appeared in an Ann Landers column, Jerry Falwell’s biography, and in a speech by Ronald Reagan. This poem has since become the most repeated and reproduced poem of the last century. You all know it, I am sure. The poem is most commonly called “Footprints.” Here are the bones of it. It begins with a dream where someone is talking to Jesus. The pilgrim, the man, or the woman—it changes depending on the poem—is reflecting upon their life. And what they see in the past are footprints on a beach, a path, or a dusty road—signs of life’s journey. For most of the journey, there are two sets of footprints, Jesus and the person, walking side by side. But every once in a while, there is only one set of prints. Troublingly, these single sets of footprints correspond with life’s most challenging times. Confused, the pilgrim makes an as­ sumption: Jesus must have abandoned me. Sad or indignant, the person asks Jesus, “Why’d you leave?” Jesus then replies with the tenderness you expect from Christ, “When you see one set of footprints, it is then when I carried you.” The first time I heard this, it made an impression on me. I am not the only one. Part of the popularity of this poem is its ability to make sense of the silence or ab­ sence of God in our lives. It is a thoughtful rendering of a deeply unoriginal idea: you think God has abandoned you, but God is with you. The simplicity of the idea may be why at least four people have claimed owner­ ship of this poem. They all have a similar story: struck by a sudden burst of inspira­ tion, they jotted down this poem, a little different, but with the same basic punchline, “It is then when I carried you.” The authors are now fighting each other-dueling copyrights. All of them are sure that they are the originator of this idea. One has taken a lie detector test to assure people he wrote the poem. Another has considered hiring the forensic literary analyst who studied the letters of the Unabomber. Cease and desist letters are regularly sent to those who print the poem. It’s everywhere. It’s been everywhere for a while. And the problem with the poem being everywhere is that its force is increasingly blunted on each successive reading. It is easy to dismiss


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    the poem when the surprise is no longer surprising. And yet, the poem deserves our attention. At the heart of the poem is a reflection, someone looking backward and trying to make sense of the world. In his second epistle, Peter is likewise looking backward. Years earlier, Peter tromped up a mountain with Jesus, James, and John. At the top of the mountain, Je­ sus was crowned in glory and started glowing. Suddenly, Moses and Elijah show up. In Peter’s first attempt to make meaning of the moment, he tries to keep everyone on the mountain. “Let’s build some tents,” he says. Jesus dismisses the idea, and every­ one except Moses and Elijah eventually come down the mountain. Months later, Peter followed the arrested Christ into Jerusalem. Peter sat around a fire as Jesus was interrogated a few yards away. In that moment of fear and dis­ tress, Peter can’t find his faith. He can’t conjure the memory of Christ’s glory on that mountain. Christ is then executed. In his hopelessness, did Peter think about that day on the mountaintop? That Saturday between death and resurrection must have been a time of furious grief and troubling reflection. Then Christ shows up again. And Peter is inspired to more reflection. Then Christ leaves again— ascends to heaven. More reflection. Then Pentecost. More reflection. Then a vision of animals and gentiles. More reflection. Later in his ministry, he writes a pastoral letter where he again re­ flects on that moment on the mountain, and it makes sense again. Christ was with him that day. The glory was real. The power of the footprints poem lies in the power of reflection. The poem as­ sures us that in looking backward, Christ might make meaning of moments of silence and hardship. The poem reminds us that the past is not random and brutal, and we do not walk this journey alone and without help. Both Peter and the footsteps poem make sense of the holes, the silence, and the absence in our world. A deeper reflec­ tion on Christ’s presence is a necessary and compelling posture of faith. And yet, the footsteps poem and Peter’s vision of glory are incomplete. They need another story about footprints. Writer Shusako Endo never really fit in. His Roman Catholic neighbors met his ethnicity with skepticism and racist assumptions. Additionally, his religious convic­ tions were never honored among his Japanese neighbors who were predominantly Buddhist. Remarking on the awkwardness of his faith, Endo once wrote that “the clothes and my body were not made for each other.” Additionally, Endo could never fully embrace the terrible history of Christian colo­ nialism in his country and the triumphalism of the Western Church. Like our footprints pilgrim, he walked alone. In his telling, Endo needed a more terrestrial Christianity, something quieter and less concerned with making sense of everything, something that rested solely on Christ and not on the dogma that permeated the tradition. In 1966, Endo published Chinmoku, a book that explored his version of Japanese Christianity. Later translated in 1969 as Silence, Endo’s tale is about a headstrong Portuguese Jesuit priest who comes to service in Japan during the 16th century amid


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    Christian persecution by the Shogunate. At the time, Christianity had been banned, and priests served hidden communities of Christians. Amid his service to those suf­ fering, the protagonist, Sebastião Rodrigues, hopes to hear from God, but all he hears is silence. Rodrigues keeps looking backward and asking for a word, but he hears nothing. Eventually, Rodrigues is captured by the government and tortured, along with some other members of his Japanese Christian community. The priest is told that he can save these other members of his flock by denying Jesus and stepping on a carved iron picture of Christ called a fumi-e. The decision rends Rodrigues in two, deny Christ and save these people or refuse and everyone will die. He longs for Christ’s wisdom. He longs to be carried through the trial on the back of Christ. As Rodrigues stares at the picture of Christ, it begins speaking to him. In a moment of rare literary power, Jesus finally breaks the silence. Christ says to him, “Trample, trample!” Christ says step on me. Step on me for your own life and the life of these others. Step on me because this is precisely why I came to earth. I came that you might find life. I came, Christ says, so my sacrifice might be your gain, your life, your opportunity. Endo’s Silence is a book about reflection. It is about the struggle that comes from seeing the pain and the hurt in the world and not seeing God amid that trouble. In this way, Endo’s book is like footprints. But Endo provides a slightly different theology we need to hear. “My child,” says Christ, “I didn’t just carry you. You walked across me. The footprints are not just in the sand; they are on me.” Beloved of God, you may never know the true danger you have faced. You may be oblivious to the most profound acts of mercy that Christ routinely submits himself to on your behalf. But Christ’s sacrifice is not predicated on you realizing it. Christ came to be trampled— stepped on and raised to a cross—so that we might be saved. We need to know that we were carried, yes, yes. Loved. Secured. Yes. And we also need to know that Christ didn’t just carry us but sacrificed himself for us. We need to know that when we survey the footprints in the sand, it should have been obvious that these were Christ’s feet in the sand because they still bear the marks of the vi­ olence of this world. And sometimes, there is one set of footsteps because we carry Christ into the world. We carry Christ into the places of pain and sorrow, suffering from silence. We carry Christ, not as a triumphal antidote to the pain, but as a fellow sojourner who knows the pain. We carry Christ as one who still bears the marks of his crucifixion on his hands and feet. We carry Christ so that when people reflect and look back, they won’t see a single set of footprints, but two butt-prints in the sand. I am going to write a poem that no one will buy, called “Butt-prints.” There, you see those, those two butt-prints; that’s where that person sat with me and wept. They were like Christ to me. That is where that person didn’t feel the need to move me for­ ward but sat with me in my pain, where her silence made room for my growth and my understanding.


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    The gift of the footprints poem, Peter’s letter, and Endo’s Silence is that they are invitations to reflect upon the mountains in our memories and the beaches of our recollections. They call us to reconsider where God has been amid our struggles. With help and in time, we might hear God’s silence as a sign of God’s faithfulness. And when we look back upon our struggles, we might also know that God has not just been carrying us or away upon a mountaintop shining in glory, but Christ is also standing beneath us—our firm foundation.

  • Who Speaks For God?

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    Who Speaks For God?

    Numbers 11:24-30

    James Gertmenian

    Portland, Maine

    So Moses went out and told the people the words of the Lord; and he gathered sev­ enty elders of the people, and placed them all around the tent. Then the Lord came down in the cloud and spoke to him, and took some of the spirit that was on him and put it on the seventy elders; and when the spirit rested upon them, they proph­ esied. But they did not do so again. Two men remained in the camp, one named Eldad, and the other named Medad, and the spirit rested on them; they were among those registered, but they had not gone out to the tent, and so they prophesied in the camp. And a young man ran and told Moses, “Eldad and Medad are prophesying in the camp.” And Joshua, son of Nun, the assistant of Moses, one of his chosen men, said, “My lord Moses, stop them!” But Moses said to him, “Are you jealous for my sake? Would that all the Lord’s people were prophets, and that the Lord would put his spirit on them!” And Moses and the elders of Israel returned to the camp (Numbers:24-30)

    One Thursday, some years ago, I made my way out from Minneapolis to the campus of United Theological Seminary to work on a sermon. There was a particular nook among the stacks in the Seminary library where, over time, I had found that I was able to attend, undisturbed, to the ideas and questions and feelings toward which the busier parts of my life were inhospitable. On the particular Thursday of which I speak, before settling into my seat, I found myself wandering among the stacks, not looking for any particular volume, but simply threading my way around, since for me at least, movement of my body often helps prod my sluggish mind. It was quiet at first. What sounds there were-the low rumble of a truck pass­ ing by outside, the gentle whisper and tick of the heating system, a few discretely passed words from the circulation desk-were benign and unobtrusive. As I mean­ dered among the stacks, an occasional title caught my eye: “Christian Chaos: Revo­ lutionizing the Congregation,” “A History of the Church of England,” “Voices of the Winds: Native American Legends,” “The Works of Cardinal Newman,” “Abortion and the Constitution.” I also saw an eclectic assortment of authors: Emmanuel Kant, Rosemary Reuther, St. John of the Cross, Harvey Cox, and Julian of Norwich. At first blush, these were an orderly crowd of volumes: books that had the good manners not to speak until spoken to, docile enough to stand stock still, rounded up by sub­ jects and obsequiously waiting in alphabetical order. Order in my outer environment, however elusive it is in my inner world, has long seemed to me a sanctuary, so things like books in their places have a calming influence on my soul and offer a welcome respite from a swirling reality that is not nearly so predictable.


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    But on this particular day, the silence and the order were not to last. I don’t know who was first to do it (perhaps it was the irrepressible Julian, or maybe it was the theologian Reinhold Niebuhr or the iconoclastic bishop, John Shelby Spong), but as I walked among the stacks, some of the books began to speak. No ear could have picked them up, of course, but for me, in those moments, voices started to emerge from those books as though the authors were actually resident in the pages, impris­ oned by the bindings, tired of their decorous silence, and wanting like anything to get out. The more I walked, the more I heard, and the more I listened, the bolder the books became until I could hear from every stack, every shelf, a rich chorus of infinite parts, each book with its point of view, its burning issue, its arcane facts, its compelling insights. And then the library was no longer silent at all, but teeming with sound, voices reaching out from the volumes, hungry for an audience, pregnant with things to say. It was Pentecost in the stacks, a conflagration for which books were the tinder and the spark, and my mind and soul were the fuel, and it all brought to mind that day when the Spirit of God fell on the first disciples and prompted them to speak in myriad tongues which, foreign as they were, could still be understood by every hear­ er. So, right there in the library, John Calvin argued his case with Paul Tillich. James Weldon Johnson’s soaring, cadenced oratory offered counterpoint to the meticulous systematics of Karl Barth. Thomas Aquinas conversed with Mary Daly, Gustavo Guitierez ’s bold call to liberating action was balanced by Hildegard of Bingen’s mysti­ cal reveries, and the playful, yet dolorous Soren Kierkegaard took his turns with the earthy and insightful Renita Weems. Their tongues were different, but it was all the language of God, and although it was not the quiet refuge that I had sought, it was glorious. Glorious, yes, but for my struggling mind and my fainter spirit, it was also intimidating. How does one find one’s own voice in such a chorus? How does one claim one’s own thoughts in such rarefied conversation? It was Pentecost for all but for me, it seemed, and as exhilarating as it was in one sense, in another sense it was frustrating to find my own words lodged immoveable in my throat. Some inner cen­ sor was shushing me in the presence of these giants, forbidding me to speak because I was not of their spiritual or intellectual stature. I wonder if you know that same censor. Perhaps in your case it isn’t the words or the ideas that get silenced, but the feelings. The exuberance of Pentecost and other moments of ecstasy and passion, whatever prompts them, are unseemly, the inner voice tells you, and though at the deepest places in you something wants to leap, to dance, even to rage with echoes of Pentecostal fervor, a much more forceful voice tells you to keep your place, to mind your manners, to bridle your emotions . . . and sometimes that voice is so strong that you mistake it for your own. Or, then again, perhaps for you it is the moral grandeur of the storied saints together with a sense of your own shortcomings that stifle your unique moral voice, your particular ethical authority. If Mother Theresa is speaking and Martin Luther King is prophesying and


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    Dietrich Bonhoeffer is setting the tone, who are you to add a word or even make a sound? So it is Pentecost for some, but not for all. When the intellectual, spiritual, or moral authorities give utterance, more often than not we ordinary people defer and admire and bow and keep silent. And the paradox is that as frustrating as it seems on the one hand, on the other hand, it’s a relief. If the idea of God, the truth of God, the ethical demands of God are to be carried into the world, better that someone else shoulder that burden. Not me. Not you. But there is an odd and instructive story-another Pentecost-like story found in Hebrew Scripture-that challenges our reticence. The story takes place during the time of the Exodus, the great wandering in the wilderness of Yahweh’s people be­ tween Egypt and the Promised Land. These nomadic tribes of Hebrews, joined to­ gether under Moses’s leadership, have known epic tribulation, have vacillated be­ tween fearful faithlessness and courageous conviction. One minute they are treading with “unmoistened foot” through the Red Sea waters, and the next minute, they are fashioning a Golden Calf. One day their minds are fixed on the Land of Milk and Honey that is ahead of them, and the next day they are pining for the security of Egypt and their predictable slavery. In other words, these are people tossed about by life much as we are, caught in the glory and the brokenness of their humanity. It is not a company divided between saints and sinners, but a congregation of women and men whose feet are of clay and whose aspirations are of spirit and whose hearts are caught in between. Wherever they set up camp, they erect the Tent of Meeting nearby, the place where Moses goes in and converses with God. On the day in question, Moses choos­ es seventy elders of the people and takes them out and places them around the tent. And God takes some of the spirit, or the charisma that has been given to Moses, and places it on each of the seventy so that before you know it, they are all prophesying; that is, they are all imbued and speaking ecstatically. Like Moses, they speak for God, have become vessels of God’s spirit. They are the chosen ones, the appointed ones, the authoritative ones, the honored ones. But there are two other men, Eldad and Medad, who have not been chosen, who have remained in the camp with the ordinary people. Nevertheless and unaccount­ ably, some of God’s spirit has come into them as well, and they are prophesying too, just like the seventy. They speak out just as boldly as the chosen ones and act with the same kind of authority. Someone, of course-undoubtedly a well-meaning person who wants things to happen “decently and in order”—is horrified at the impropriety, and so he runs to Moses and tells on the two men. “Eldad and Medad are prophesy­ ing in the camp!” he cries. And Joshua, Moses’s protégé, here playing the part of the censor, picks up the theme and begs Moses to shut them up. “They can’t prophesy,” Joshua complains. The censor’s voice is shrill and frightened and threatened and clear: “Eldad and Medad weren’t chosen. They weren’t out at the tent. They didn’t go to seminary. They aren’t intelligent enough. They aren’t as spiritually deep as Ki­


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    erkegaard or as morally authenticated as Bonhoeffer. If they can prophesy.. .then… then…, then anyone can prophesy. If they can speak for God, then anyone can speak for God. That will never do!” Moses’s response is swift and sure: “Would that all the people were prophets,” he said, “and that God’s spirit would be on them all.” Centuries later, when people came to Jesus and asked him to bear God for them, he turned them back. When they addressed him as “Good teacher,” he said, “Why do you call me good? No one is good but God alone.” Jesus wanted people to know that if God was to be in the world, it would happen through them, and not through him alone. “You are the light of the world,” he said to them, and again, “You are the salt of the earth.” He did not claim to be the unique and sole Son of God. “When you pray,” he said, “pray like this, ‘Our Father…,”’ and what implication can you draw from that pronoun but that he understood each of us to be the Daughter of God or the Son of God? All of the most authentic religious leaders refuse to carry our religion— and our moral burden—for us. It’s true, of course, that we need moral heroes, so we look to people like Dor­ othy Day and Dr. King and the Righteous Gentiles who protected the Jews during World War II. We need spiritual guides, so we look to Thomas Merton and May Sarton and the medieval mystics. We need intellectual teachers, rabbis, so we look to Luther and Niehbuhr and Heschel and Barth and Reuther. And many look to Jesus who had the intellectual rigor of a rabbi, the spiritual depth of the mystics, the moral authority of a prophet, and the authenticity of one who lived what he taught. There is nothing wrong with heroes and guides and teachers. Thank God for them. But on this Pentecost, consider that Moses’s wish—that God’s spirit might be poured out on all the people—has been fulfilled. This is one of the great teachings of the Protes­ tant Reformation and of our liberal religious heritage. We cannot ask others to carry God for us, to be spiritual for us, to make moral choices for us, to think for us. The supreme glory and the staggering burden of being human is that we each bear in our mortal bodies the spirit of the eternal. We each bear in our limited minds the spirit of wisdom. We each bear in our flawed souls the spirit of the goodness. Who speaks for God? Yes, the giants do, without a doubt, but not only them. Who speaks for God? You do, and if you take that as both encouraging and terrifying news, then you have heard it correctly. So on Pentecost, you are meant to be no bystander, hearing the tongues of the wise and the good and the soulful, admiring them from afar, or sitting at their feet. On Pentecost, you and I are meant to join the wise and the good and the soulful, to stand on our own feet as children of God, to make hard moral choices with the saints, and to loosen our tongues, and with courageous abandon speak whatever truth has been imparted to us. So let me ask you: on this Pentecost, what is the truth that has been given to you to speak, with your words or with your deeds? What truth is burning in you? The truth of forgiveness? The truth of peacemaking? The truth of good news for the poor? The truth of the ineffable holiness of beauty? If the voice of the Eternal is to be uttered through the community of the faithful, then your part of


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    that utterance, even if it is incomplete, is holy, and urgently necessary. Dear friends, it’s Pentecost. Will you let others speak for you? Can you be silent on such a day? At the end of Lanford Wilson’s play The Fifth of July, we hear the conclusion of a science fiction story written by one of the characters, a young boy whom we never see:

    After they had explored all the suns in the universe, and all the planets of all the suns, they realized that there was no other life in the universe, and that they were alone. And they were very happy, because then they knew it was up to them to become all the things they had imagined they would find.1

    We may not be alone in the universe, and we are certainly not alone here on Earth, but there is wisdom in what the boy wrote, for on the journey of the soul, it is, indeed, up to us to become all the things we imagine we might find. And if, on that journey, we have sought to discover the Eternal, the Transcendent, the one known as God, then we will not find it at all unless we find it in ourselves.

    Note ‘Wilson, Lanford, The Fifth of July, (Act II) (New York: Hill and Wang Publishers, 1979), pg. 127.

  • Changing the Question

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    Changing the Question

    Barrett Payne

    Lillington Presbyterian Church, Lillington, North Carolina

    Two pastors were standing by the side of the road one day, holding up a large homemade sign that said “The End is Near! Turn yourself around now before it’s too late!” A car approached, and the driver rolled down his window yelling “Take a hike, you religious nuts!” before speeding off down the road. A few seconds later, at the sound of screeching tires and a giant splash, one of the pastors said to the other, “Do you think, instead, we should have just written ‘The Bridge Is Out?’” Religious people are notorious for pointing to the end of times. Some draw our attention to Israel’s regeneration, restoration, and regathering as signs the end is near, while others point to the book of Daniel (Dan. 12:4) and speak of increased travel and knowledge. Then there is the Bible translation argument. All these translations, they say, suggest the great commission is complete, not to mention pandemics, nu­ clear war conversations, severity of natural disasters, and the earth’s warming are all pointing to Jesus’ second coming. Everywhere we turn someone is pointing out that end times are near, including the non-religious. From last year’s Great Recession in 2021 to 2022’s quiet quitting, it seems ambition is lost. People are giving up and wondering if this is it. And I think they are all right, not about the giving up part, but the end of times. In our passage this morning, Jesus suggests as much himself, mentioning three signs: false messiahs and false calculations of times, wars and international conflicts, and natural disasters with cosmic terror. What Jesus is saying is that when the world is coming to an end, it will affect not just Israel, but all nations, not just the nations, but the entire cosmos.1 Then after going through this litany of things to come, after telling the disciples that the temple is about to fall, notice what Jesus does not say: “You better get yourself right with God.” Nor does he say “Here is a three-step prayer to pray.” He does not even ask “Do you know where you are going when this occurs?” Instead, Jesus says, “Don’t worry about the signs.” God will worry about that. For you, for the church, the most important thing to do “is to bear witness. ” I wonder what it would be like in the year 2023 for the church to take on such a task as to bear witness? I think it would begin with the church changing her question. Over the past 30 years, and especially over the past 3 years, we have been plagued with the same question. The question comes from a well-meaning place. It’s a question often asked with tears in our eyes, but it has proven to have been the wrong question. Instead of asking “What do we do to get folks back to church?” Presbyterian pastor Adam Bomemann suggests the church ask “What’s the Holy Spirit doing in peoples lives, in our community, and how do we come alongside that?”2 If we start with bearing witness with such a daring question, be prepared, Jesus says, to encounter suffering. Jesus warns his disciples that they will be persecuted.


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    What Jesus is saying to them and to us is that those who love God so much don’t care who knows or how much it will cost or how unpopular it makes them or how much it endangers their lives. Sam Wells argues that this type of faith that Jesus is calling us to is a faith that follows through the implications of Christ’s love to the very end. It’s a faith that does not duck the logic of the gospel, a faith that never tires, even in the face of hostility or when the world is ready to give up, even when it gets messy or requires vulnerability and sight.3 This suffering will not only be our own, but our neighbors as well. Changing our question to “how do we come alongside our community” means that we will follow Jesus to the suffering next door. Here Jesus invites us in and asks us to stay and bear witness. Laurie Anderson, in her young adult novel Wintergirls, tells the story about Lia, a teenager struggling with anorexia. With her parents dealing with a divorce and her best friend gone, Lia’s struggles go unnoticed by those who walk beside her every day, even though her body mass gradually begins to waste away. She comes up with reasons to miss out on dinner at home and skip out on the cafeteria at school. Her family, her teachers, and her friends avoid seeing her pain because pain comes with uncertainty.4 Suffering suggests the end of times because there are not quick solutions to suf­ fering. Lia’s life is messy. Her troubles are messy. All the people in her life, all the people who surround her each day, don’t see her and therefore cannot show her the infectious mercy that our community desires. Without mercy no one is there to help her— no mercy.. .no connection, no connection.. .no care, no care.. .no hope. Earlier this month, the American Psychological Association released a study rec­ ommending that every adult in the U.S. under the age of 65 should be screened for anxiety disorders, and adults of any age should be checked for depression. The study went on to say that more than 30% of adults reported having symptoms of anxiety disorder or depression this summer. I wonder how many of the people within our community are facing the same symptoms. I wonder how many feel as if these are signs that their end is near. I won­ der how many of us here this morning can relate. I wonder what it would look like for a church to not run from such suffering but to encounter it and ask how we come alongside you. I would imagine changing the question to how do we come alongside our community would require us to get pretty good at improv. Jesus tells his disciples to make up their minds not to prepare your defense in ad­ vance, for I will give you the words and wisdom. This improvisation that Jesus calls us to, for most of us, is scary, scary because we like to be in control, scary because we think we need to be clever, scary because we couldn’t imagine not preparing. However, this is where most of us get it wrong about improvisation. Improv does not mean we have to be clever or that it must come from within or that we wing it without preparation. Actually, it is just the opposite. Improv with Jesus means that it never only comes from us or has anything to do with being clever. Nor is it about getting it right in some predetermined way. Instead improv always relies on full participation and the phrase yes… and.


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    In an interview, Marthame Sanders, a pastor, producer and Improv actor, argues that in improv, the maxim ofyes…andis a bedrock. “That is, whatever a fellow play­ er offers, I will acknowledge its truth and then add to it. It’s not automatic agreement; that’s co-dependence, not trust. Rather the goal is to say ‘yes’ to the truth of the offer. For example, a player pretends to hand me a baby, and I change it to a bowling ball; I have denied the truth of the scene. I have undercut any trust the player might have in me. On the other hand, if I accept the baby as fact, then I can add a detail that deepens the scene. It creates mutual trust, which leads to collaborative discovery and eventually beautiful risks.”5 This yes…and is a parallel in our faith. We are commanded to love our neighbor. That is our yes, not a reflexive agreement with whatever they say or do. With this yes, there is still conflict or different opinions over sanctuary carpet, politics, theology even. Instead, yes affirms another’s image of God. The and implies a movement that will change both parties by the encounter even when there is conflict. The initial yes of God’s love then the and that deepens the relationship when the church seeks to take the initiative to live this kind of mutual reality together will build trust, create new discoveries, and move us alongside our sisters and brothers with faithful risks. And Jesus says we can do this without worrying about our words, because in reality, our words don’t matter a whole lot. If we as a church are serious about trans­ forming our question, if we are serious about walking with Jesus alongside our com­ munity, then our transformation, the transformation of the community, is not relying on our words. It is relying on the act of doing, the act of following the one whom we believe to be God in bodily form. Our faith becomes real, our wholeness becomes real, and our transformation becomes real when this is embodied. I think this is why Jesus goes through this litany of horrid events. What Jesus is doing is reminding us that life on this side of heaven is often made up of unfortunate incidents. These incidents are not God’s punishments nor are they God’s will to mark the end times. These events are from the acts of people, by the acts of us all within this world. If we want to be a vital church of the twenty-first century, then we must change the question, and for the church, changing the question begins in this room. It is in this room that we become prepared. This is where God calls us to practice each week. It is in this room where we learn to be vulnerable with one another and with God, where the Holy Spirit teaches us how to recognize our suffering and the suffering of others. It’s in this room where we learn to connect with and care for one another so that we are pre­ pared to connect and care for others out there. It is in this room where we learn to rec­ ognize the love, grace, forgiveness, mercy, hope, and the joy of the Kingdom of God. If we are not coming to worship together, if we are not opening up scripture and reading it together in small groups or Sunday School, then how will we recognize the joy of the Kingdom of God? How will we be able to defer from the false witnesses from God’s Kingdom? How will we be able to point to God’s hope and joy amongst all of the suffering of this world?


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    In a world of self-indulgence and scarcity, how will we survive speaking about an abundant love that is available for all? Will we have a story to witness other than the End of Times tale this world so cheaply offers? How will we be prepared to navigate within these two spaces of suffering and joy? To be a Christian in the twenty-first century is to improvise between these two spaces—the space of walk­ ing alongside the suffering of the world and the joy of God’s Kingdom. To put it in Easter terms, the suffering we encounter is the cross, and the joy we encounter is the resurrection. The space in between is our home on earth. This represents the pathos that some say is the end times and the joy that we call our heavenly home. It is in this space where we will find Jesus. What will it mean for the church to change her question? It means that the closer we get to suffering, the closer we get to the Kingdom of God. Or the closer we get to the cross, the closer we get to the resurrection. For those of us who find ourselves closer to the cross than to resurrection this morning, we are not alone. In this room, in this space, it is safe to say so. Find someone and tell them. And for those who find themselves closer to resurrection than the cross, we are happy for you. Now find someone who is not. Don’t worry if you do not think you are prepared. God has been preparing you your whole life. It’s time for all of us to stop limiting ourselves to just part of the gospel, the suf­ fering of the end times or the joy within the Kingdom of God. It’s time for the church to live the whole Gospel to dwell between suffering and joy where the cross meets the resurrection. This is where we meet Jesus. This is what Christianity is. This is what it means to live it.6 If we even try to do that, to dwell there, then without even realizing it, the question will be changed, and we will find ourselves walking along­ side God, our community, and one another.

    Notes

    1 Fred Craddock,”Luke,” Interpretations (Louisville, Kentucky: Westminster John Knox Press, 2009), page 244.

    2 Adam Bomemann, “Freeing Ourselves from Faulty Assumptions,” https://mministry.org/freeing-ourselves -from-faulty-assumptions-and-short-sighted-questions/.

    3 Sam Wells, “Dwelling in the Comma,” Duke Chapel, January 30, 2011.

    4 Laurie Anderson, Wintergirls (New York: Penguin Group, 2009).

    5 An interview of Mathane Sanders by Lyle Garrity (A Sanctified Art) posted by Columbia Theological Seminary, https://www.ctsnet.edu/yes-wholehearted-guest-rev-marthame-sanders%EF%BB%BF/. 61 am thankful for Sam Wells and his “Dwelling in the Comma,” Duke Chapel, January 30, 2011, as it impacted my theology and the ending of this sermon.

  • Redefining Greatness

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    Redefining Greatness

    Mark 9:30-37

    Brady Radford

    Trinity Presbyterian Church, Decatur, Georgia

    Today we have the pleasure and joy of witnessing one of the church’s greatest sacraments, Baptism. It is a keen reminder of God’s claim upon our lives. We have the added joy of witnessing a child being baptized because it reminds us that the power and efficacy of Baptism is not found in her having done anything to earn this rite but in her simply receiving it as an act of God’s grace. So to the family, we say congratulations, to this church we say hallelujah for this blessed joy, and to the entire body of Christ who gathers with us today in many places and spaces, we say praise God from whom all blessings flow. Friends, I’ve heard it said that you can’t teach an old dog new tricks. They say it’s impossible because the animal is too far gone, too set in its own ways, to adjust or reconsider is simply too much to ask. Well I don’t know about dogs, but it cer­ tainly feels that way at times with humans, and most often this fact is reflected in the church. It’s hard to get people to reconsider or push beyond the boundaries of their current understanding. If it’s true for us today, I’m imagining that the same was true during Jesus’ time. In this morning’s passage, we meet Jesus on the road. He had spent most of his ministry in Tiberius and around the Sea of Galilee, but today we find him traveling between Galilee and Capernaum. He’s with twelve of his closest friends, listening to a first century iPod playing Willie Nelson’s classic hit “On the Road again, On the road again, I just can’t wait to get on the road again.” But whereas Willie mentions making music with his friends, Jesus is making his march towards Jerusalem. And this is not just any journey. This is his last. The path he’s on ultimately leads to the cross and Golgotha’s hill. Jesus is busy trying to help his friends understand the full­ ness of his mission and the ministry to which they have been called. The text tells us that Jesus wanted some intentional and intimate time alone with the disciples. As their teacher, he desired to be alone with his students to limit distractions and prepare them to receive what was sure to be a difficult message. Friends, there is no substitute for alone time with Jesus, and sometimes it’s the alone time that gives us what we need to bear the news of difficult messages. Jesus tells his friends that there are going to be some hardships before the halle­ lujah comes, “The Son of Man is going to be delivered into the hands of men. They will kill him, and after three days he will rise again.” Now just to be clear and to be fair to the disciples, Jesus’ words are about as radical and as prophetic and as ominous as the words Rev. Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. uttered on April 3, 1968, just one day before his death:


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    Like anybody, I would like to live a long life. Longevity has its place. But I’m not concerned about that now. I just want to do God’s will. And He’s allowed me to go up to the mountain. And I’ve looked over. And I’ve seen the Promised Land. I may not get there with you. But I want you to know tonight, that we, as a people, will get to the Promised Land!

    Can you imagine being there that night? Can you imagine being one of the dis­ ciples on the road with Jesus? The impact of his words must surely have sent shock waves through the core of his friends. But this is where they were, and this was ap­ propriate for the path they were taking to Jerusalem. You see, on the road from Galilee to Capernaum, they would have likely walked past hills littered with crosses and persecuted bodies, which served as a constant reminder that the Emperor had one agenda, to “Make Rome Great Again!” Jesus and his community lived as occupied people in the Empire of Rome, and every few miles or so there was a constant reminder which began with the stench of death. This is what happens to those who attempt to upend or overthrow the current power structure. It must have been a hard truth and a difficult sight for the disciples to process. They had been hoping and waiting for a king who would come to overthrow the Roman authorities, but their plans had not included him needing to die first. Surely they couldn’t understand what Jesus was saying, and this was the second time he had mentioned this morbid message. The first was in chapter 8, then again in chapter 9, and he would soon do it again in chapter 10. I can see the disciples there pacing steps behind Jesus, looking at the back of his head wondering what on earth Jesus was talking about. Surely that’s what they thought, but no one had the courage to ask any questions. They were fearful, afraid, and confused, and they did what people who are fearful and confused always do—they became distracted. They began majoring in the minor and minoring in the major. Instead of taking Jesus up on his attempt to create intimate and personal teaching time with his disciples, they sat on their concerns. Soon their inner turmoil began to manifest in other ways like, you guessed it, arguing about who was the greatest. Now why the disciples’ minds turned to arguing over greatness escapes me.

    • Some scholars believe it’s because they were jockeying to see who would take Jesus’ place. He had just announced that he would be crucified, which means there would be a vacuum in leadership and one of them must fill it. Who would it be? Maybe that’s why, but that seems a bit too advanced for the disciples I’ve come to know in Mark’s Gospel. • Other scholars contend that a few of the disciples were miffed at the fact that Jesus was playing favorites. He had just taken Peter, James, and John up the mountain to experience the transfiguration. It was these same three that he


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    had taken to Jairus’s home to heal his daughter. Maybe the other 9 disciples were experiencing the FOMO affect. Maybe they were fearful of missing out and couldn’t quell their discontent. • The last possible suggestion is that the disciples played by the same rules some do in the church—when in doubt, fight it out.

    So they argued, and despite their best attempts at containing the squabble, Jesus had heard them and now that they had reached Capernaum, he felt it an opportune time to bring the concern front and center. Relaxing at the home of their host, Jesus asks, “What were y’all arguing about back there?” Friends, here we find another dilemma and difficulty in the church: instead of taking their challenges to the lord and sharing the angst or worry they felt, the disciples began tearing into each other. Isn’t it just like us too. When we are afraid, when fear grips us, when we are faced with trouble, instead of going to Jesus, we argue it out amongst ourselves. But here’s the thing I like about Jesus: he had an uncanny way of meeting peo­ ple where they were and then inviting them to consider taking a few steps along the road with him. He was capable of challenging people’s way of thinking and viewing the world. In a non-threatening manner, he used his presence and God-given agency to help people remove the obstacles that separated them from the goodness and greatness that can only be found in God’s will. As much as he taught people, he also helped them unlearn ways of being that were not fruitful or faithful as citizens in the kingdom of God. Here’s what I love about Jesus: Jesus is an invitational leader. He never demands; he invites people to experience a trans­ forming encounter with God. I can see him there. He sits down with the disciples and beckons them to lean in a lit­ tle closer. It’s kind of like this, in the same way a baby is bom with legs but doesn’t know how to walk. The disciples were in intimate relationship with Jesus but didn’t know how to interpret or integrate his presence into their lives. I can see him saying “because you are in danger of missing the major point, let me break things down in the way that you can understand. I don’t want you to be left with any questions. God’s ways are not our ways. God’s work is not about competing to be great in the world’s sense. God’s work and God’s call is different, and it turns the ways and wisdom of the world upside down and right side up. In God’s kingdom, if you want to be first, you’ve got to serve somebody.” He offers them and he offers us an antidote to the world’s madness. In God’s king­ dom, in God’s economy, there is room for everybody to be great. Jesus whispered to the disciples the same truth he would later reveal to us. Again in the words of Rev. Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr., in his famous Drum Major Instinct sermon, God is reminding the world:

    Anybody can be great, because everybody can serve. You don’t have to have a college degree to serve. You don’t have to make your subject and your verb


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    agree to serve. You don’t have to know about Plato and Aristotle to serve. You don’t have to know Einstein’s “Theory of Relativity” to serve. You don’t have to know the Second Theory of Thermal Dynamics in Physics to serve. You only need a heart full of grace, a soul generated by love.

    I would say you need a soul powered by love. Why would Jesus pull the disciples to the side? Why then, what message did he want to make sure he got across? Friends, He wanted to make sure they knew and that you and I know. Greatness is not a competition; it’s part of your composition. It’s in your DNA, and what makes it real is not that your Christian resume or life circumstances need to be compared to another’s. What makes you great is that you are made of the stuff God is made of, and in each of us, there is a God-sized morsel that calls and shapes and creates opportunities for us to be great. Your greatness is not about outshining or overshadow­ ing another; your greatness is found in your being open and willing to welcome and serve even the likes of a child. Jesus chooses a child for various reasons. But everything they needed to do God’s work and to honor God’s will in their lives was already right there with them. How­ ever, they didn’t know how to use it. For many of us, greatness will begin not by our learning something new, but by unlearning some of the unhealthy and unhelpful traits learned in the world. The world pits God’s children against one another instead of placing them shoulder to shoulder beside one another to live God’s will in the world. Friends, I’d say if you want to make this or any other country great again, you must begin with turning people back to the message of God’s love. You have to invite them to unlearn the messages of racism, hatred, xenophobia, and bigotry. God’s love has already provided everything we need not only to be great within the work God has assigned to our hands, but also to support the greatness that already lies within each of our sisters and brothers. It’s kind of like this, in the same way a baby is bom with legs but doesn’t know how to walk, the disciples were in intimate relationship with Jesus, but didn’t know how to interpret or integrate his presence into their lives.

    • We are all created in the image of God, and God is within us all. • Our basic underling nature is to be loving, peaceful, balanced, and caring, compassionate and kind. • Over the course of our lives, these natural tendencies become overlaid with fear, anger, sadness, envy, and insecurity. • Over time these and many other emotions cover up our inner nature. • It starts when we are children, as we receive good training from well meaning people who teach us how not to be honest with ourselves or others. • And in the place of honesty and openness in relationships, we leam how to fake it till we make it. In the process of doing this, we lose touch with God and ourselves. We forget who we really are.


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    • We do not need to learn how to love and serve, how to forgive and be faithful. • Our task is to unlearn those negative and harmful emotions/attitudes that plague our lives and cause us misery. • As we let go of these and other hindrances, we rediscover our true nature as God’s beloved children. • We rediscover greatness has been there all the time, covered up and lac­ quered over by our fears and past pains. • With God’s help we realize that greatness does not have to be acquired. It’s already there. It needs only to be revealed as we unlearn and release those things that separate us from the will of God. • Who God is is not who we are. It is evidence of God’s power and not our own, meant to be used for God’s glory and not our own.

    So we move from this place, trusting God to remove the obstacles that stand in the way, knowing that fear freezes and pain paralyzes us. But in this text and in our journey, we are constantly able to rediscover the gifts of God in our relationship with Christ.

    Prayer God, whose love calls us to service, remind us of the goodness that overcomes our cynicism, our power plays, our arguments, our rationality, our book-smarts, our ego, our desire to be great. Remind us of the time we served and grew, when we moved beyond where we thought we were able to go. Remind us of the times we have felt that we mattered to someone, sometime we felt acknowledged and lifted up because someone met us right where we were. Remind us of the solidarity that comes out of such experiences. And when we forget, O God, set before us a child, so that we might welcome what we can know of amazement and wonder and goodness.

  • The Terror of Advent

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    The Terror of Advent

    Lewis Galloway

    Black Mountain, North Carolina

    Advent begins with the cry, “O, that you would rend the heavens and come down!” (Isaiah 64:1). The cry arises from the anguish of the world and the pain in the human heart. Without this cry of distress and the longing for God to act, Advent becomes little more than a sentimental celebration played out with bathrobes, straw, paper angel wings, a glittery star, crowns, and imagined donkey, sheep, and camels. Advent begins with a profound sense of the absence of God. Where is God when mass shootings ravage the land, war rages without any end in sight, children around the world starve, migrants flee oppression and poverty, and a superheated planets breeds floods, fires, and deadly storms? Where is God when justice for the poor and the marginalized seems far away, when child abuse and domestic violence are rampant, and overflowing prisons are little more than warehouses for human beings whom society refuses to treat as human. Where is God? “O that you would rend the heavens and come down! 99

    Advent is the season of longing for God. Only God can bridge the gap between the way things are and the way God intends the creation to be. Advent begins with this impassioned cry for God, and then it speaks of the ways in which God has acted, God acts today, and God will act at the end of time. The pivotal moment of God’s action takes place in an insignificant town in Gal­ ilee when the angel startles a young girl with the news that she will be the mother of Jesus, the son of the Most High God. William Butler Yeats captures both the mystery and the terror of that moment in his poem, “The Mother of God.”

    What is this flesh I purchased with my pains. This fallen star my milk sustains. This love that makes my heart’s blood stop Or strikes a Sudden chill into my bones And bids my hair stand up?

    God has acted in the birth of Jesus. From that moment, the Scriptures reflect on the identity and meaning of Jesus as the Messiah in the line of David. The theological highpoint of that reflection is found in the Prologue of John which speaks of Jesus as the incarnate eternal Word of God. “And the Word became flesh and lived among us. and we have seen his glory, the glory as of a father’s only son, full of grace and truth’ (John 1:14). When the Word is made flesh, the creation is transformed. The divine invades and unites with the world of space, time, and matter. The priest and poet Ge­ rard Manley Hopkins understood the sacred nature of a God-invaded creation when he opened his poem, “God’s Grandeur” with the words, “The world is charged with


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    the grandeur of God.” Not only is the creation charged with the presence of the holy, but human life itself is transformed. Through the power of the resurrection, Christ becomes incarnate in us. As Paul says in his letter to the Galatians, “It is no longer I who live, but it is Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me” (Galatians 2:20). The challenge is how do we live a resurrect­ ed life in a new creation when the old world with its dying power presses in upon us. In my last year of college, a friend and I worked as night tutors in a Boys’ Home. We went from desk-to-desk to check English papers, call out vocabulary, review sci­ ence questions, and untangle math problems. The boys were struggling, not just with homework, but with life. Most of the boys came from dysfunctional homes; most of them didn’t want to be there. They acted out their anger at school and at the Boys’ Home. I watched the housemother interact with the boys. She was firm but loving. I didn’t know how she found such patience. One night my friend and I were venting our frustration to her. She said, “I guess I have learned the importance of persistence. These boys have known adults who disappoint them, beat them, yell at them, ignore them, and give up on them. At times I find myself not liking some of them very much, but it doesn’t mean I stop loving them. I tell myself that no matter what I think, they belong to Jesus. One day I will see his face clearly in each one of them.” She knew the Advent truth that the incar­ nate Christ dwells in each one of us. She never gave up on them. She never stopped looking to see his face in their faces. God delights in the things that flow unconsciously out of a life shaped by the Spirit. True discipleship is a habit of the heart. When our character conforms to Christ’s character, then practicing love, mercy, and justice is not something we have to think about; it just becomes a part of who we are. Not only has God acted in the birth of Jesus, but God continues to act. Since Advent is the celebration of the coming of God into a broken and longing world, it is also the celebration of the coming of the Holy Spirit to the gathered church. In the church calendar, we mark the coming of the Spirit as the Pentecost miracle, but Advent looks to the daily experience of God in the life of the believer and in the life of the church. In the Gospel of Mathew, between the announcement of his passion and the experience of the transfiguration, Jesus tells his disciples, “There are some standing here who will not taste death before they see the Son of Man coming in his kingdom” (Matthew 16:28). Could Jesus have been wrong? All of the disciples died before the Second Coming of Jesus in power. Perhaps, he intended something else. When Stephen was being stoned to death, he lifted his eyes and saw Jesus standing at the right hand of God in heaven (Acts 7:55). Could Advent not also recognize and lift up the many ways in which we experience God’s presence and power in our living and dying? Some years ago, a young father in our congregation was diagnosed with an in­ curable cancer. He, his wife, and two children were devastated. He was struggling


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    emotionally, physically, and spiritually. He couldn’t understand why this was hap­ pening and couldn’t imagine dying and leaving his young family. Each time I visited him he asked hard questions to which there are no easy answers—if there are any answers at all. With whatever response I made or words of comfort I offered, I could hear the sound of a cheap tin bell ringing in my ear. Words were cheap. Mostly, I lis­ tened. I was distressed and frustrated that he would die without coming to any sense of acceptance or peace. One day, I got word that he was in the hospital; he had fallen into a coma. In the room, his wife was standing on one side of the bed, and I was standing on the other. Suddenly, he woke up. He was looking beyond the end of the bed at something or someone. He said in the most peaceful voice, “Oh, now I see.” He turned to his wife, told her that he loved her, and died. In such holy moments, the veil that separates heaven and earth becomes thin and porous. In such moments, the presence of God answers the Advent cry of longing and despair. The Spirit of God in Christ transforms the mundane into the magnificent and the ordinary into the extraordinary. In our Advent longing, we look around us and within us to discover the holy. Elizabeth Barrett Browing’s well-known verse captures the Advent challenge to perceive the presence of God that often goes unnoticed in the crush of the world.

    Earth’s crammed with heaven. And every common bush afire with God. But only he who sees, takes off his shoes. The rest sit round it and pluck blackberries. And daub their natural faces unaware.

    Like Moses, we take off our shoes, rest, and are renewed in the holy presence. Advent is about the past, the present, and the future. God has acted in the birth of Jesus, the Spirit of God in Christ is active in the world, and God will act at the end of history. Advent looks to the Second Coming of Christ and the final judgment of history. In a world in which the innocent suffer and the wicked seem to triumph, the Scriptures speak of the return of Christ as the day when wrongs will be righted, all wounds healed, and death shall be no more. The parables of Matthew 25 invite us to be prepared for the return of Christ, to take risks in the here and now for the sake of the kingdom, and to practice in our daily living compassion, justice, and love. Some may relish the idea of Christ’s return as the day when all the “evil doers” will get what’s coming to them. The return of Christ is not only about justice. It is also about mercy. We tend to think of justice and mercy as different virtues; we may even think of them as opposites. Our practice of justice and mercy is imperfect. God’s justice and God’s mercy are the same thing. They are two dimensions of God’s love. In our skeptical world, many people, both within and beyond the church, may question the biblical and theological images of the Parousia as so much smoke and mirrors. The return of Christ seems long delayed. Even within the New Testament, there is evidence that some expected the triumphant return of Christ within their life-


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    time (Mark 9:1; Thessalonians 4:15-18; Revelation 1:1; Hebrews 10:23-25). Now that 20 centuries have passed, what do we make of the promised return of Christ? Have we become like the narrator in T.S. Eliot’s poem “The Hollow Men” who con­ cludes, “This is the way the world ends/Not with a bang but with a whimper.” Will things simply fall apart? Will human life destroy itself? Will our sun become a plan­ et-devouring black hole? Will the universe collapse into itself or spin into greater and greater empty space? We do not know. But we know this: the biblical promise is that history has mean­ ing and value. Jesus is Lord of history. Although we cannot unravel all mysteries or know how or when the end will be, we can know that our destiny and the destiny of all things are in his hands. Jesus said that not even the Son of Man knows when that moment will be (Mark 13:32). Yet, we watch and wait for that moment in hope and expectation. This future impinges upon the way we live in the present. Trusting in the future, we may live with courage in this present troubled time. Knowing that the future belongs to Christ shapes our moral actions and our eth­ ical norms. In Albert Camus’s novel The Fall, the narrator says, “Do not wait for the last judgment. It happens every day.” Although Camus’s meaning and intention were quite different from our understanding, we hear his words to mean that we live and act as if the last judgment is today. All of our actions are judged by their coherence with the plans and purposes of God for creation. When we are called upon to act in difficult situations, we align ourselves with the teachings of the gospel and we en­ trust our lives to the Coming One. The words of Micah, the Sermon on the Mount, Jesus in the synagogue, the parables, the moral guidance of Romans, and countless other key texts form our thinking, speaking, and acting. There is freedom to act when we know that Jesus holds and keeps us whatever the outcome of our actions. We don’t have to win, but we have to witness. One of the great leaders of the Montgomery bus boycott was an elderly woman known as Mother Pollard who refused the suggestion that she quit the boycott be­ cause of her age. She said that her feet were tired, but her soul was rested. Her words echoed throughout the boycott and gave encouragement to others. She did not know how or when the boycott would end or what the outcome would be. Yet, she did not give up because she knew the future was in the hands of Christ. One night during the boycott. Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. spoke at a church rally. After he spoke. Mother Pollard came to the front of the church and asked him what was wrong because he did not speak well that night. He brushed it off. She persisted and said that she knew something was wrong. She told him not to worry because the people gathered there were with him to the end, and even if they were not with him that God would take care of him (Taylor Branch, Parting the Waters}. The final victory belongs to God. Our task is to persevere in our efforts to be witnesses to the love and justice of Christ in a hurting world. There are many glob­ al concerns of overwhelming magnitude: endless wars, oppression, hunger, injus-


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    tice, violence, homelessness, international migration, and global warming. Only by keeping our eyes on Jesus as Lord of history and empowering Spirit can we gain the perspective we need to act and not be paralyzed. When we do not have confidence in the final outcome of any endeavor, we shrink from giving our best to the task at hand. We look at the odds and give up. When we have the confident faith that God will use our small efforts to achieve a greater good that we may never see, then we are empowered and set free to act with bold determination. This Advent, of the many concerns that weigh heavy upon us, consider lifting up in preaching, teaching, and community action the issues of gun violence in the United States and global warming. The overwhelming number of mass shootings in the States can numb the conscience and lead many to accept gun violence as normal. So far this year there have been on average almost two mass shootings a day; there have been many more deaths by guns including suicides, accidents, and homicides. Our children and youth are among the targets. How do we welcome the Prince of Peace in a culture that is addicted to guns? The pious “thoughts and prayers” re­ sponse is not enough. This is a public health issue. This is a moral issue. The Second Amendment right to bear arms is not an absolute right. When the rights of citizens to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness are endangered by the proliferation of automatic and military-style weapons in civilian hands, limitations must be placed on this Second Amendment right. Such limitations should include restricting types of weapons sold, background checks, reg flag laws, gun safety training, and many more. At this time in our culture, stopping gun violence demands political action. Up to date information and statistics are easy to find. It is important to build a theologi­ cal foundation to the efforts to curb gun violence. Even as we use the wisdom, skills, and resources we have, we cannot know the final outcome of our efforts. Yet, we live under the Lordship of Jesus Christ who gives us the divine imperative to protect life. The Scriptures teach us of the Creator’s love for the whole world. The psalmist declares, “The earth is the Lord’s and all that is in it, the world, and those who live in it” (Psalm 24:1). As we look for the Coming of Christ, we know that we will be held accountable for how we have cared not just for friends, family, neighbors, church, but for all humanity, all creatures, and all the created world. As followers of Jesus, creation care is our calling. The recent global tragedies of floods, fires, earthquakes serve as a wakeup call to the indifferent. It is a clarion call to the church to be en­ gaged in efforts to reduce carbon emissions, practice sustainable agriculture, change consumeristic lifestyles, support renewable energy, act politically, and much more. Some years ago, I spoke about global warming in a Sunday sermon on the gift of creation and our role in caring for the earth. After the first service, a member said that I couldn’t talk about global warming as it was “political.” During the second service, a member of the choir got up in a huff and walked out during the sermon. In a conversation that week, he told me that “global warming” was a hoax. He said it all depended on where the scientists put the thermometers. I thought to myself.


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    “Tell that to the polar bears who are losing their environment.” In both cases I had to remind myself that we are to be obedient to what we believe Jesus calls us to be and do. He is the one to whom we will be accountable on the last day. As Camus noted, we do not wait until the last day. The last day is here and now. The season of Advent opens with the cry for God to come down to a hurting, broken world. In answer to the human cry. Advent lifts up the ways in which God entered human life and transformed the created world in the birth of Jesus; how God in Christ comes in the Holy Spirit to awaken us to the truth and to empower us to live faithful lives; and how Christ will come again at the end of history to restore all things. There is something terrifying about Advent. When the angels appeared in the night sky to sleepy shepherds, it is no wonder they were filled with fear. Something new was about to happen that would change their lives and the life of the world forever. The heavens opened and God came crashing into their world. Advent is the beginning of this threefold experience of God—the loving God who acted, acts, and will act again. W.B. Yeats expressed the startling dimension of Advent when he opened his poem “The Mother of God” with these words: “The threefold terror of love; a fallen flare/Through the hollow of an ear …” Indeed, there is something terri­ fying about the love of the triune God. It is terrifying because it demands everything of us.

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    Frederick Buechner and Homiletical Impressionism

    Thomas G. Long

    Cambridge, Maryland

    American Preaching and “Impressionism ” In 1874, Gaspard-Félix Toumachon had an idea, a seemingly modest proposal for an art show, but an idea that ultimately transformed the art world. Either a Renais­ sance man or a P.T. Bamum-style impresario—take your pick—Toumachon was an inventive 19th century Parisian photographer with a prominent studio at 35 Boulevard des Capucines. He was also a man of many parts. He had been in his day, among oth­ er things, a caricaturist, a novelist, a balloonist, a circus ringmaster, and, reportedly, a secret agent for the French government. Part artist, part showman, Toumachon was difficult to overlook. A big man with burning-bush red hair and an impressive russet mustache, Toumachon recognized early on that he was meant for the public eye. At the precocious age of nineteen, he decided, à la Prince and Madonna, to change his name to a single, memorable, manufactured, press-worthy moniker, “Nadar,” a label he splashed extravagantly, like Chanel or Dior, across the façade of his studio. Nadar’s big idea was as simple as it was radical. He would lend his studio for an exhibition to some of his friends, young unconventional, outcast, mostly impov­ erished artists such as Paul Cézanne, Edgar Degas, Claude Monet, Berthe Morisot, Camille Pissarro, and Pierre-Auguste Renoir. After all, they badly needed a place to exhibit, having been brusquely rejected by The Salon, the conservative gallery representing the Parisian art establishment. What better space than Studio Nadar? It was well-known, centrally located, and had already become a gathering spot for the intelligentsia of Paris, surely an ideal venue to give a group of avant-garde painters a prominent and favorable showing. Not so. The exhibition was, at first blush anyway, a total disaster. It lost money, for one thing. Attendance was sparse, with most coming not to appreciate the new art but to scoff at it. Real art, after all, was consumed by the great, epic themes and was painted with clear, bold, technically crisp and competent representation. These new painters by contrast focused not on cherished mythological narratives or stories from the Bible but on everyday scenes—picnics on the Seine, girls in flower gardens, recently plowed fields. They used pastel colors, gauzily applied, so that the paintings looked, to the conventional eye, unfinished and amateurish. Guffaws could be heard in the studio as the attendees made their way from painting to painting. What was particularly offensive about these painters was not simply unconven­ tional technique but the way their subject matter subtly challenged the hypocrisy of conventional art. Accepted artists could paint a lovely rendition of, say, the Virgin Mary, but in a way that was pedantic, sentimental, and pious. These new artists found such works to be cliches, and they redirected attention away from the big narratives and accepted verities and toward the ambiguities of ordinary life. Moreover, the


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    seemingly unfinished quality of their paintings served to shift the responsibility for meaning to the viewer instead of upon the artist alone, perhaps the one quality of this new art movement that stimulated the greatest outrage.1 Almost everyone who ventured to Nadar’s studio to see this experimental art huffily rejected it, but the most scornful were the professional art critics. One de­ scribed the exhibition as the works of “five or six lunatics, one of whom is a woman” (referring to Berthe Morisot).2 Most enduring and ironic, though, was the acerbic review of art critic and journalist Louis Leroy. He was appalled by what he saw and was especially galled by Claude Monet’s Impression Sunrise, a hazy, misty presen­ tation of an early morning scene of boats, grey-blue water, and an orange rising sun over the port of Le Havre.3 Was this seriously a depiction of a sunrise in Le Havre, or was it a piece of graffiti by a child or an idiot? Many viewers at the exhibition had complained about this painting, grumbling that “they were absolutely unable to rec­ ognize what was shown at all.”4 In his review, Leroy ridiculed the word impression in the painting’s title. “Impression!” he sneered. “Wallpaper in its embryonic state is more finished!”5 It was a caustic review Leroy would come to regret. The artists knew a back­ handed compliment when they saw one, and they soon adopted Leroy’s jab as the name of their movement: “Impressionism.” Within a year, the whole art world was celebrating this new and exciting venture in art.6 Impressionism did not, of course, spring from thin air. Fin de siècle Paris was a time of social, political, and religious upheaval. The making of crafts and the labor of individual artisans were being swept away by the rise of factories and mass pro­ duction. Craftsmen had now become a social class: “laborers.” The ideas of Marx and Engels, who had published The Communist Manifesto in 1848, gradually seeped into the restless political vocabulary of this new and self-conscious working class, who now spoke boldly of such concepts as the “bourgeoisie” and the “proletariat.” Darwin’s Origin of the Species appeared just fifteen years before the exhibition, and the church was now playing defense, trying to keep Christianity and the Bible from seeming discredited by modem science. Only four years earlier, the Second Empire in France had come to an inglorious end, with Napoleon III in exile in England and the establishment of the Third Republic. The new regime was long-standing, lasting until the arrival of the Nazis in 1940, but it was marked by constant political unrest caused by conflict between liberal reformers, heirs to the French Revolution, and conservatives in the Roman Catholic Church and rural farmers. Paris itself was in flux, being transformed into a city for the elite, its narrow streets being replaced by lovely tree-lined boulevards, fancy railway stations, and high-end apartments with exorbitant rents.7 Impressionism was both a child of and a critical response to this society of un­ rest, class struggle, and radically changing values. The paintings of the impression­ ists featured the everyday life of ordinary people in parks, cafes, and cabarets, but


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    they did not reflect a contented society. They revealed “the new sense of alienation experienced by the inhabitants of the first modern metropolis.”8 Impressionism changed art, and it later exerted a major force upon the “new arts” of photography and cinema. A century later, a similar impressionistic shift in rhetor­ ical art emerged as a transformative influence in American preaching. The American pulpit in the 1940s and 1950s was, in some ways, like classical art before impres­ sionism. At its best, it was full of grand rhetoric devoted to the majestic stories of the Bible and the great moral principles of Christianity. A good example of preachers of this era was Ralph Sockman, who for over four decades served as pastor of Christ Methodist Church in New York City. Time magazine described him as “the best Protestant preacher in the United States.”9 Sockman’s sermons were not preached at street level. Instead, he stood aloft in the ecclesial tower calling the polis to reclaim the eternal verities of the faith. In his 1942 Beecher Lectures at Yale, Sockman said, “We must turn from the ‘politics of time’ to the ‘politics of eternity.’”10 He described his disdain for sermons sullied by the gritty issues of the day:

    My personal policy is to preach very few special sermons devoted solely to public issues such as peace, missions, literature, corrupt politics and the like. Rather it is my aim to take basic principles and try to swing their searchlights so that they fall upon the various phases of our social, eco­ nomic, and political environment.”11

    But in the memorable words of Yeats, “Things fall apart; the centre cannot hold,” and in the 1960s, things began to fall apart. American preaching of the sort that Sock­ man practiced fell apart as well. On the fiftieth anniversary of the biblical journal Interpretation, preaching professor Richard Lischer commented on the aptness of Yeats’s image of the center not holding by remembering what preaching was like in 1947 when Interpretation was founded:

    Indeed, any talk of a center takes us back a generation or two. If you need con­ vincing that we have a new situation in preaching, read some sermons from 1947…. I looked at a few dozen…, and I can testify that reading them was like finding a message in a bottle from another shore. All the familiar characters and themes are there, but the idiom has changed. The sermons breathe a sense of confidence in the clarify and rationality of the Christian faith. This is a mes­ sage that makes sense, they seem to say, and it is going to get through. If you have listened to tapes from that period, you may have noticed that the preach­ ers sound terribly sure of themselves—even pompous—perhaps because they are under no necessity to qualify their assertions. There is an ease of commu­ nication here that is disconcerting to our ears. The sermons of 1947 reflect a new world that has been restored by the forces of good. They rejoice in the un­ limited capacity of humanity to master its future. But most of all, they assume a universe of shared values and a common language for expressing them.12


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    By the early 1970s, any sense of shared values and a common language had been shattered by Vietnam, the sexual revolution, the assassinations of John and Robert Kennedy and Martin Luther King, Woodstock, Watergate, and other manifestations of social restlessness and confusion. The emptying of establishment churches, so painfully obvious today, had already begun, and it was no longer possible to deny that traditional faith was imperiled by a rising tide of secularity. There were few thoughtful Christians left who could respond easily to the con­ fident, we’re-in-charge-of-culture proclamations of Sockman and the other pulpit princes of the 1940s and 1950s. Instead, a new development occurred in American preaching. Widely described as “the new homiletic,” this movement symbolically, at least, stepped down from the pulpit to nave level and spoke to their congregations human being to human being. They abandoned the tight, logical, morally elevated sermons of the previous generation and embraced everyday storytelling as the meth­ od of choice. No longer could preachers swing unimpeachable moral searchlights, as Sockman had done. Instead, like the impressionist painters before them, they traded stained-glass for ordinary life. They would tell of conversations in Gibson’s hard­ ware store or exchanges overheard in ICU waiting rooms or at the local pizza joint. In other words, these chastened preachers of the 1970s became homiletical impres­ sionists, turning from bold and confident dogmatic claims to a search for meaning in the everyday and ordinary. If the preachers before them had turned for authority to their own inner certainty and to the great traditions of the faith, these preachers now turned to the listeners. “In the end,” wrote Lischer, “each listener makes his or her own connection to the gospel, and each gets to decide if it is true or not. The indi­ vidual hearer—and not the church—‘makes’ the sermon.”13 The “turn to the viewer” in the impressionist painters became a “turn to the listener” in American preaching. Perhaps the greatest practitioner of this new, more impressionistic, kind of preaching was Fred Craddock. With his rural Tennessee, down home accent and his deceptively profound yams of commonplace life, he tilted the axis of American preaching. He preached a gospel that was to be found at the dinner table, in a conver­ sation with the air passenger in the next seat, in the embrace of a loving elementary school teacher, in the parking lot of the local grocery, that is, in the chambers of quotidian life. Thousands of preachers became admirers and imitators of his style, but not everyone. Like the impressionists, his new style challenged the establishment and generated sharp rebuke. Craddock’s masterwork, As One Without Authority, re­ ceived a rapid retort from the evangelical world. In an essay pointedly titled As One With Authority, Southern Baptist Albert Mohler chastised Craddock and all other impressionist preachers:

    [Preachers in the past] ascended the pulpit to speak of the eternal certainties, truths etched forever in the granite of absolute reality, matters framed for proc­ lamation, not for discussion. But where have all the absolutes gone? The old thunderbolts rust in the attic while the minister tries to lead his people through


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    the morass of relativities and proximate possibilities, and the difficulties in­ volved in finding and articulating a faith are not the congregation’s alone; they are the minister’s as well. How can he preach with a changing mind? How can he, facing new situations by the hour, speak the approximate word?14

    But Mohler missed the point. He may as well have sniffed, like the art crit­ ic Leroy in Paris, that these new preachers were but mere “impressionists.” In the 1940s “the eternal certainties” rang true, but the times had changed. Preachers who preached in the 1970s as Mohler wished they did were trapped in a positivist, some­ times fundamentalist, echo chamber. Craddock, and those like him, were pointing the way forward for preachers in an alienated and uncertain time.

    Frederick Buechner: A Reluctant Homiletician If Craddock was the master craftsman of the “new homiletic,” Frederick Buech­ ner was its poet laureate. Strangely, for one who so deeply influenced the preaching of his time, Buechner was himself shy and never fully comfortable in a pulpit. And he must have been surprised when Yale invited him to deliver the prestigious Beech­ er Lectures, an honor generally reserved for preaching’s recognized practitioners and professors. But Buechner was a writer, and, Lord, could he write. He was the Voltaire of the homiletical revolution, and he wrote exquisitely and in ways that, like Renoir and Pissarro, brought the stories of the Bible close to home, humanized the heroes of the faith, and reimagined elevated theological language in the discourse of daily life. Buechner died at age ninety-six last summer. The contours of his life are wellknown , in part due to the countless tributes that have poured forth in news accounts and magazines. A surprisingly successful novelist by the time he was in his twenties, Buechner nevertheless soon found himself in a personal crisis. “I was twenty-sev­ en,” he wrote later, “living alone in New York trying with no success to start a novel and in love with a girl who was not in love with me.”15 Depressed, lovesick, and searching, Buechner wandered for whatever reason into Madison Avenue Presbyteri­ an Church, where he heard George Buttrick preaching, contrasting the coronation of Queen Elizabeth II with the coronation of Christ in the faith of believers. Elizabeth was crowned with pomp and circumstance, said Buttrick, but Jesus was crowned among “confession and tears and great laughter.” It was hearing that last phrase, great laughter, that changed Buechner’s life forever. “At the phrase great laughter, for reasons that I have never satisfactorily under­ stood, the great wall of China crumbled, and Atlantis rose up out of the sea, and on Madison Avenue, at 73rd Street, tears leapt from my eyes as though I had been struck across the face.”16 This was for Buechner, in every sense of the word, a conversion experience, and from that moment on, he turned his enormous literary gifts to the task of writing explicitly out of his Christian faith. Whatever instincts Buechner may already have had about the connections of faith to brokenness and struggles of daily life, his relationship with Buttrick rein­ forced them. Buttrick, like Sockman preaching only a few blocks away, was a cele-


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    brated pulpiteer, but his manner already anticipated the changes in preaching to come and subverted the image of a prince of the pulpit. Buechner said that Buttrick, with “the voice of an old nurse,” was the antithesis of a “spellbinder.” John Killinger, one of Buttrick’s former students, remembers that his instructor “defied all the rules of public speaking, habitually stuttering and wandering about the pulpit and hanging his head when he spoke.”17 Historian Edgar DeWitt Jones records that Buttrick was one who “forgets himself when he preaches. He twists his legs together, stands on one foot, and pours out his soul.”18 Buechner was also influenced, in addition to Buttrick, by his Old Testament pro­ fessor at Union Seminary, James Muilenburg. Buechner wrote,

    But for me, as for most of us studying there in those days, there was no one on the faculty who left so powerful and lasting an impression as James Muilen­ burg. He was an angular man with thinning white hair, staring eyes, and a nose and chin which at times seemed so close to touching that they gave him the face of a good witch. In his introductory Old Testament course, the largest lecture hall that Union had was always packed to hear him. Students brought friends. Friends brought friends. People stood in the back when the chairs ran out. Up and down the whole length of the aisle he would stride as he chanted the war songs, the taunt songs, the dirges of ancient Israel. With his body stiff, his knees bent, his arms scarecrowed far to either side, he never merely taught the Old Testament but was the Old Testament. He would be Adam, wide-eyed and halting as he named the beasts—”You are .. . an elephant… a butterfly . . . an ostrich!”—or Eve, trembling and afraid in the garden of her lost inno­ cence, would be David sobbing his great lament at the death of Saul and Jonathan, would be Moses coming down from Sinai. His face uptilted and his eyes aghast, he would be Yahweh himself, creating the heavens and the earth, and when he called out “Let there be light,” there is no way of putting it other than to say that there would be light, great floods of it reflected in the hundreds of faces watching him in that enormous room.19

    Buechner learned how to make biblical characters come to life among us, and echoes of Muilenburg can be heard in Buechner’s description of Pontius Pilate as a three-pack-a-day smoker and bureaucrat who is standing in front of his desk with the picture of his wife “when she still had her looks” and who, when Jesus, with the split lip and swollen eye, says to him, “Tve come to bear witness to the truth,’ takes such a deep drag on his filter tip that his head swims, and for a moment, he’s afraid he may faint.”20 Or again, hear Buechner’s all-too-human portrayal of Abraham:

    If a schlemeil is a person who goes through life spilling soup on people and a schlemozzle is the one it keeps getting spilled on, then Abraham was a schlemozzle. It all began when God told him to go to the land of Canaan, where he promised to make him the father of a great nation, and he went….


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    In spite of everything, however, he never stopped having faith that God was going to keep his promise about making him the father of a great nation. Night after night, it was the dream he rode to sleep on—the glittering cities, the up-to-date armies, the curly-bearded kings. There was a group photo­ graph he had taken not long before he died. It was a bar mitzvah, and they were all there down to the last poor relation. They weren’t a great nation yet by a long shot, but you’d never know it from the way Abraham sits en­ throned there in his velvet yarmulke with several great-grandchildren on his lap and soup on his tie.

    Shortly after I arrived in the mid-1970s as a new professor at Columbia Sem­ inary in Georgia, I was placed on the committee that selects speakers for the seminary’s annual ministers’ week. Having encountered Buechner when I stum­ bled across his hilarious and profound novel Lion Country, I suggested his name. “Who?” the committee asked. I told what I knew of Buechner, and the committee, reluctant I suppose to discourage the rookie prof, voted to invite him. Columbia’s president sent the invitation, and soon a letter came back in which Buechner ac­ cepted, but asked, “What would you like me to talk about?” The president came to my office with the letter. “You suggested him,” he said. “What do you think he should talk about?” I thought about that for a while and made three suggestions of topics, one of which was to tell the story of his life theo­ logically. I had just read The Alphabet of Grace in which Buechner rehearsed the rhythms of an ordinary day through the lens of faith, so a theological autobiogra­ phy seemed the next step. That was the idea that Buechner chose, and the resulting lectures became his powerful book The Sacred Journey.21 In the lectures, Buechner spoke honestly of moments of laughter and pain in his life, including the emotional story of the suicide of his father. The church where the lectures were held was silent and electrically attentive. After each lec­ ture, people, moved by Buechner’s testimony, rushed to phone people they loved and to say tender things that they had always wanted to say while there was still time. Like the impressionists before him, who could find truth and depth, however ambiguous, in picnics, piano lessons, and strolls along the Seine, Buechner found wonder and holiness in the unfolding of his days. “I sometimes think that all the major dramas of my life have taken place in kitchens,” he wrote in one of his nov­ els, “and maybe that’s because in kitchens there’s always something else to fall back on if the going gets tough, like cooking or eating or doing the dishes. And maybe that’s the real drama after all—just keeping yourself alive day after day and cleaning up afterwards.”22 “What I propose to do now,” he said in the lectures, “is to try listening to my life as a whole, or at least to certain key moments of the first half of my life thus far, for whatever of meaning, of holiness, of God, there may be in it to hear. My as­ sumption is that the story of any one of us is in some measure the story of us all.”23


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    Buechner’s ability to see hidden treasure in the everydayness of his own life was bom out of a compassionate discernment he possessed not only toward his own expe­ rience but toward others as well. During those Columbia lectures, one evening I took Buechner to dinner at a local restaurant. At a table near us was a middle-aged couple. The wife, who wore the clothing of a person of modest means trying her best to dress up for a rare night out, was attempting to keep conversation going with her slightly bored husband. I noticed that she had gained Buechner’s attention. Finally, he turned to me: “Sometimes I watch people, and if I watch long enough, they move me to tears.” That compassion for others led some critics of Buechner’s writing to complain that he was never able to create a convincing villain. If so, we can see the reason for this in Buechner’s description of Virgil Roebuck, an atheistic Princeton professor who appears in the novel Lion Feast. The novel concerns Leo Bebb, a seedy Florida evangelist who runs a disreputable diploma mill, but who is actually Buechner’s embodiment of a despised “fool for Christ.” Bebb is conducting a revival on the Princeton University campus, a series of what Bebb calls “love feasts.” Roebuck confronts him as a charlatan and fear-mongerer, accusing him of all the hate and abuse ever committed in the name of religion. Bebb is on the verge of a rebuttal when he notices something:

    I saw something I didn’t notice up till then. It was one of those little signs they have on desks with your name on it. “Virgil M. Roebuck,” it said. All I knew up to then was just Roebuck, and then seeing that sign, I thought to myself how this wasn’t any old Roebuck. This was the Roebuck they’d settled on calling Virgil. This was the special Roebuck they’d pinned that special name Virgil onto and raised up to amount to something special….

    And then, in words inspired by a similar scene in Graham Greene’s The Power and the Glory, Buchner adds,

    I busted in there as mad as a hornet, but you can’t stay mad when you start thinking things like that. Once you commence noticing the lines a man’s got round his eyes and mouth and think about the hopeful way his folks gave a special name to him when he was first bom into this world, you might as well give up. I said, “Virgil, the night is dark and we are far from home.” How come it was the words of that old hymn popped into my mind to say? I don’t know, but it did. I said, “The night is dark, Virgil Roebuck, and home’s a long ways off for both of us.”24

    Benediction It is hard to believe that Buechner’s singular voice, a cry in the wilderness for over half a century, is now stilled. It was an open secret that the last years of his life were marked by an enduring case of writer’s block. At age eighty, Buechner wrote:


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    I can still write sentences and paragraphs, but for some five or six years now I haven’t been able to write books. Maybe after more than thirty of them, the well has at last run dry. Maybe, age eighty, I no longer have the right kind of energy. Maybe the time has simply come to stop. Whatever the reason, at least for the moment, the sweet birds no longer sing.25

    Or perhaps the sweet birds were singing as beautifully as ever, but the times had changed so that their enchanting song could no longer be heard as clearly and force­ fully. It is one thing to make the promises and stories of the Christian faith freshly accessible to the troubled faithful; it is quite another thing to speak to a secular age, to people who never heard those promises nor knew those stories in the first place. There are signs all around that preaching’s Great Speckled Bird is about to leave her nest again and take flight once more. Perhaps what goes around comes around, and the time is ripe for preachers to climb back up into the high and lonely pulpit and to preach with an uncertain trumpet. In John Updike’s A Month of Sundays, Rev. Tom Marshfield admits that he was pressed into following his pastor father into the minis­ try. His father had a fuzzy, impressionistic theology, and “I became a Barthian,” says Marshfield, “in reaction to his liberalism.” But there was more: “I did not become a Barthian in blank recoil, but in positive love of Barth’s voice… wholly informed, wholly unfrightened prose…. In Barth, at the age of eighteen, I heard the voice my father should have had.”26 Is this the voice needed now? Only the Spirit knows. In his old age, Buechner kept his daily routine as long as he could, making his way each morning to his backyard writing studio. In hopes of banishing the ghost of writer’s block, he started the day by writing, in longhand on yellow legal pads as he always did, a brief essay about some memory from his own life. When he had finished, he would crumple the page and toss it into a comer. But Buechner being Buechner, these tossaway essays were brilliant and were ultimately published as The Yellow Leaves. But they never led to the flow of creativity he had known as a younger writer. He needn’t have worried. As long as there are anxious Christians, feeling alien­ ated from the high doctrines of official Christianity and the sometimes distant claims of scripture, there will always be grateful preachers eagerly quoting Buechner and telling of an anxious chain-smoking Pontius Pilate and an Abraham, the tenacious Jew at the neighborhood shul with soup on his tie at the bar mitzvah.

    Notes 1 I. L. Zupnic, “The Social Conflict of the Impressionists. Zola’s Opinions versus Evidence in Portraits,” College Art Journal, 19/2 (Winter, 1959-1960), 146. 2 “It is Time to Talk About Berthe Morisot, An Important Woman Impressionist,” Widewalls, https://www.widewalls.ch/magazine/berthe-morisot-exhibition-bames-foundation. 3 “Impression Sunrise by Claude Monet,” Claude Monet: Paintings, Biography, and Quotes, https://www.claude-monet.com/impression-sunrise.jsp. A Ibid. 5 “About Impressionism,” http://www.impressionism.org/teachimpress/browse/aboutimpress.htm.


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    6 Ibid. 7 “Movements: Impressionism,” The Art Story, https://theartstory.org/movement/impressionism/. https://www.theartstory.org/movement/impressionism/. 8 Ibid. 9 “Religion: Preacher on Park Avenue,” Time, (Oct. 6, 1961), https://.time.com/time/magazine/article /0%2C9171 %2C827808%2C00.html. 10 Ralph W. Sockman, The Highway of God, (New York: Macmillan, 1942), 59. 11 As quoted in John Bishop, “Ralph W. Sockman: 20th Century Circuit Rider,” Preaching. Com, https://www.preaching.com/articles/past-masters/ralph-w-sockman-20th-century-circuit-rider/. 12 Richard Lischer, “The Interrupted Sermon,” Interpretation, 50/2 (April, 1996), 170. 13 lb id., 173. 14 R. Albert Mohler, Jr., “As One With Authority,” https://albertmohler.com/2008/12/12as-one-with-authority . The original is in italics, which have been removed. 15 Frederick Buechner, The Alphabet of Grace (New York: Harper Collins, 1970), 43. 16/W.,44. 17 John Killinger, “George A. Buttrick: Discipline and Style,” The Christian Century, 107/5 (Feb. 7-14, 1990), 147. 18 Edgar DeWitt Jones, “George A. Buttrick,” The American Preacher To-Day (Indianapolis: Bobbs-Merrill, 1933), 277. 19 Frederick Buechner, Now and Then (New York: Harper Collins, 1983), 15-16. 20 Frederick Buechner, Telling the Truth: The Gospel as Comedy, Tragedy, and Fairy Tale (New York: Harper Collins, 1977), 13. 21 Frederick Buechner, The Sacred Journey (New York: Harper Collins, 1982). 22 Frederick Buechner, The Book ofBebb (New York, Harper Collins, 1979), 363. 23 Frederick Buechner, The Sacred Journey, 6. 24 Frederick Buechner, The Book ofBebb, 353. 25 Frederick Buechner, The Yellow Leaves: A Miscellany (Louisville: Westminster John Knox, 2008), ix. 26 John Updike, A Month of Sundays (New York: Random House, 1975), 24-25.

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    The End

    Exodus 14:5-7, 10-14, 21-29

    Adrienne Thome

    The Riverside Church, New York, New York

    5 When the king of Egypt was told that the people had fled, the minds of Pharaoh and his officials were changed toward the people, and they said, “What have we done, letting Israel leave our service?” 6So he had his chariot made ready, and took his army with him; 7he took six hundred picked chariots and all the other chariots of Egypt with officers over all of them.

    lOAs Pharaoh drew near, the Israelites looked back, and there were the Egyptians advancing on them. In great fear the Israelites cried out to the Lord. 11 They said to Moses, “Was it because there were no graves in Egypt that you have taken us away to die in the wilderness? What have you done to us, bringing us out of Egypt? 121s this not the very thing we told you in Egypt, ‘Let us alone and let us serve the Egyp­ tians’? For it would have been better for us to serve the Egyptians than to die in the wilderness.” 13But Moses said to the people, “Do not be afraid, stand firm, and see the deliverance that the Lord will accomplish for you today; for the Egyptians whom you see today you shall never see again. 14The Lord will fight for you, and you have only to keep still.”

    21 Then Moses stretched out his hand over the sea. The Lord drove the sea back by a strong east wind all night, and turned the sea into dry land; and the waters were di­ vided. 22The Israelites went into the sea on dry ground, the waters forming a wall for them on their right and on their left. 23The Egyptians pursued, and went into the sea after them, all of Pharaoh’s horses, chariots, and chariot drivers. 24At the morning watch the Lord in the pillar of fire and cloud looked down upon the Egyptian army, and threw the Egyptian army into panic. 25He clogged their chariot wheels so that they turned with difficulty. The Egyptians said, “Let us flee from the Israelites, for the Lord is fighting for them against Egypt.” 26Then the Lord said to Moses, “Stretch out your hand over the sea, so that the water may come back upon the Egyptians, upon their chariots and chariot drivers.” 27So Moses stretched out his hand over the sea, and at dawn the sea returned to its normal depth. As the Egyptians fled before it, the Lord tossed the Egyptians into the sea. 28The waters returned and covered the chariots and the chariot drivers, the entire army of Pharaoh that had followed them into the sea; not one of them remained. 29But the Israelites walked on dry ground through the sea, the waters forming a wall for them on their right and on their left.

    Good morning, Church! It is good to be back with you in the sanctuary and to join with you in the virtual space. I spend a lot of time looking for and creating places where our individual bodies and collective body can harmonize…can settle…can


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    find some space and grace, and breath. I believe this is one of the most important rea­ sons that we gather-harmony, settling, space, grace and breath. This morning if you are open to that possibility for yourself, I’m going to ask you to turn and look behind you, over one shoulder; notice the stretch. Now turn and look behind you over the opposite shoulder. Look up. Look down. Look right. Look left. Tilt one ear towards your shoulder.. .and then the other. Wiggle or massage any part of your body that needs a little more attention. We are living in anxious times and what we are doing is creating a little room in our bodies/minds/spirits for what we are about to receive. Feel free to come back to this as we enter the sermon this morning. It’s going to be a little heavy, but God’s got us, amen! Let’s pray. Creator and creating God, in whom we move and live and have our being, we thank you for the thrill of new beginnings, for the electricity that sizzles even now as we start a new season together at the Riverside Church. We know that with beginnings there are endings, so be with us on the way as we honor the past, grieve our losses, and walk together to your promised land. In Jesus name we pray. Amen. “Before you can begin something new, you have to end what used to be. Before you can learn a new way of doing things, you have to unlearn the old way. Before you can become a different kind of person, you must let go of your old identity. Be­ ginnings depend on endings. The problem is [we] don’t like endings.”1 Take a deep breath, Church. Those are the words of Dr. William Bridges, considered one of the preeminent authorities on change, and I’ve been thinking a lot about change, Church, since we were last together. I moved, a few weeks ago, to a beautiful new home and. ..Iam unsettled there. I had to keep the lights on the first night because I didn’t know my way around in the dark. It is a big change. It does not have the familiarity of the home I have lived in for six years. I’ve lost my home, but at the same time, I couldn’t stay there. It was time to move on. Like the Hebrew people fleeing Pharoah this morning, there comes a time when we all must leave home, leave the familiar, and always, always, we leave home with mixed feelings. I don’t care how ready we are for change, how exciting the new be­ ginning is, how much milk and honey we’ve been guaranteed in the promised land: We. Don’t. Like. Endings. The people Moses is leading don’t like endings either. It didn’t matter that they were enslaved. It didn’t matter that they were the property of another human being. It seemingly didn’t matter that the Pharoah had decreed, way back when Moses was bom, that all Hebrew boys, age two and under, should be thrown in the river and drowned. None of that mattered. They did not want life as they knew it to change. And they let Moses know that they would rather be enslaved than embrace the end of life as they had known it. Think about that! They say to Moses, “Was it because there were no graves in Egypt that you have taken us away to die in the wilderness? What have you done to us, bringing us out of Egypt? Moses is thinking “I think I’m


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    setting you free,” but the people, in their fear—and we have to be deeply compas­ sionate with fear—in their fear, the people continue to berate Moses. They say, “Is this not the very thing we told you in Egypt, ‘Let us alone and let us serve the Egyp­ tians’? For it would have been better for us to serve the Egyptians (to do the thing we knew) than to die in the wilderness.” So be very clear, the people were afraid that they would die, and they would rather be enslaved than have life as they’ve always known it, life as they’ve always done it, come to an end. Sound familiar? We don’t like endings, Church! We will stay in harmful spaces because we think the end will kill us. Here’s the thing: what kills us, what wrecks us, us and our families and our churches every time, is our failure to honor the past, to grieve out loud, and to mark the end. How many funerals and memorial services didn’t happen because of Covid? And how many families and communities were wrecked and remain wrecked because of our inability to mark the end? Like the He­ brew people at the Red Sea, we have to go through the end, not around it. And like the Hebrew people, God will part the waters. This Exodus story is pivotal to so many cultures and communities. It speaks of liberation, emancipation, freedom. Women see themselves in this text, the LGBTQ+ community locates themselves here, African descended people certainly take our im­ ages of God directly from this story, Palestinian siblings, indigenous folk and other marginalized groups look to Exodus as a blueprint for God’s liberating activity in the world, but it never struck me until now to pause in the Red Sea and look back, with an enormous wall of water to our left and another humungous wall of water to our right, with the promised land ahead of us, with the wild cacophony of noises behind. What if we were to pause and look back? What do you see? What do you hear? What do you experience? Crying babies, screaming parents, the clatter of horse hooves on the shore, and the churning of chariot wheels. All that adrenaline to get mama and “dem folks” probably lost things, dropped things. Maybe a shoe got stuck in the mud, maybe you see an Egyptian face regarding you with hatred and disgust. Often we imagine the people moving quickly forward, forward to the new beginning. But what if we paused and looked back? Take a deep breath, Church. It rarely strikes us to look back does it? Because we’re supposed to be happy, right? Moving forward is good, forward ever, backward never, onward and upward. Don’t look back; someone may be gaining on you. Forward there is no more slavery. There are new beginnings, a promised land, milk and honey. We’re supposed to be happy. But forward is also unfamiliar and scary. It’s scary because change, no matter how welcomed, comes with grief, the grief of the end. You have a brand-new shiny job, but you don’t know how things work yet. Your auntie died, and she’s gone home to be with Jesus, but you loved her, and she ain’t here with you. Reverend Adriene is here. We did it, we got us a pastor, but that means all those other pastors we loved are not here, and they aren’t coming back, and we’ve lost their humor, their sermons, their smiles, and their songs. And what do we do?


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    We keep it movin’, Church, onto the next season before we’ve said goodbye to the last one or the one before that or the one before that. We move on before we’ve hon­ ored the past, grieved out loud, and marked the end. It would behoove us, Church, to pause and look back. Life is changing, and we have all lost things. Church, you’ll learn before long that I really believe in the power and wisdom of the body. I’m going to ask you do something that is simple and not so simple. Whether you are in the sanctuary or the virtual space, take a chance with me now and stand up if you are able. If you are unable, do what you can from your seat. Stand and turn around. Face the back of the sanctuary—symbolic of where you’ve come from. I know it probably feels silly, but humor me and give this moment to yourself and to the honoring of anything or anyone you have lost. Call the names of your people. Call to mind the events that need honoring. Speak these losses out loud or whisper them in your heart. On behalf of the Riverside Church, I call the names of our former senior ministers as a way of honoring them, grieving the loss of them, and mark­ ing the end: Rev. Dr. Harry Emerson Fosdick, Rev. Dr. Robert James McCracken, Rev. Dr. Ernest T. Campbell, Rev. Dr. William Sloane Coffin, Jr., Rev. Dr. James A. Forbes, Jr., Rev. Dr. Brad R. Braxton, Rev. Dr. Amy Butler. Church, for whom and for what else shall we honor, grieve, and mark the end? When you have called your names and brought to your remembrance all those peo­ ple and events that you have lost, I invite you to turn back around, Church, and have your seats. Recognize that we may need to do this a few times before we are ready to move on to our new beginning. When my big brother died, I was on the phone a lot with my family—making plans, setting dates, comforting those who were in shock. The most powerful thing that was said to me in the flurry of moving/forward/fast was said by my youngest sister, who I thank God is here today. Her words forced me to pause and look back and remember that we had lost someone. Her words invited me to honor the past, grieve out loud, and mark the end. She simply said, “Adriene, I’m sorry for your loss.” Riverside, to each of you individually and to us as a collective body, hear me say “I am sorry for your loss.” Riverside has changed. These United States of America have changed. The children in our lives are growing up and growing older every day. I am sorry for your loss. Bodies and minds don’t do what they used to do. Some have loved ones in prison. Some have dreams we weren’t able to realize. I am sorry for your loss. Many face racism, sexism, homophobia, classism, and other marginalizations. We’ve lost years of academic instruction. God has vowed to bring us to a promised land, but right now, we are still running through the water. And we haven’t even gotten to the wilderness up ahead. Take a deep breath, Church: this is the end, and I’m sorry for your loss. God has a promised land for us, but first, we must honor the past, grieve out loud, and mark the end. It took the Hebrew people 40 years. We must respect that grieving takes as long as it takes. We must respect that tomorrow cannot come until today is over. And today, this morning, this moment, we’ve


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    made a good start marking the end. Like the Hebrew people, we are who we are because of what’s behind us. We pause and we look back so that we can have a new beginning. May it be so. To God be the glory. Amen.

    Note William Bridges, Managing Transitions: Making the Most of Change (Boston: Da Capo Press, 2016), 27.